IVF / ICSI July / August / September 2019

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Hi all

I'm new to mumsnet, and also at the start of the whole IVF journey, but having made the decision to start only last week, we are going for it straight away at the end of this month! No time like the present and all that.

Although my doc said we could potentially conceive naturally, she has also said that it might be good to crack on.

I've been advised to go for short protocol on gonal F, straight on to a dose of 450 (which I think might be the maximum...!?) She isn't taking any chances it seems, which I'm totally down with. I think I'll start some time at the end of next week depending on cycle.

Interestingly, my doc doesn't do any fresh embryo transfer preferring to freeze all, wait a cycle, then do a FET next cycle when she has 'prepared the lining' (the mind boggles).

I have no idea what to expect, and because we are leaping straight in haven't done any prep with supplements, diet, etc. I'm kind of taking the view that if it works- AMAZING... if it doesn't, hopefully we find out some stuff to put us in a better position next time. Either way, better to be in the game.

Sorry for all the info but thought I'd get the conversation going with all my details in one go so that others can share / compare notes. Looking fwd to hearing from anyone in the same boat! X

This post was edited at OP's request.

Hi @anaesthetist83 how are you feeling now? Xx

Hi,

I’m still on hdu and likely another few days before stepped down to ward. Hasn’t been the best week!

Hiya, ahh no, I really hope your better soon! Sending hugs xxxx

So..... I tested early today despite telling myself I wouldn't! Needless to say it was a BFN which made me feel lousy all day. I just have this awful feeling that it hasn't worked. I'll hold off testing agin until the 8th however I am looking at options overseas as a back up option.

@DawnK77 how was your test? Hopefully some good news for you. x

@Anaesthetist83 are you feeling better this compared to last week? I hope you are on the mend :)

@Brambles7 How are you getting by this week? Finding ways to keep busy?

Sorry about your test @ Happyday77

I’m home and slowly recovering. Have an appointment at the clinic tomorrow “to check up on me”. Am having a few weeks off work to fully recover. Hopefully we’ll be able to prepare for transfer in a couple of cycles time

Hiya, I'm glad your home and getting better. Take it easy xx

Hi happydayz, sorry about your test but maybe will change as is a few days before test day.
My test day was yesterday, BFN. Rang clinic today, as no bleeding they said test again tomorrow just to be sure, I did also do a few clear blue ones so I'm already sure but didn't bother telling her that. Not sure what we want to do next xx

@Happydayzz sorry about your test but there’s still a good few days to go before the 8th so still some hope.
I’m trying to stay calm and not test until Sunday, I’m almost happier not knowing right now. Work is keeping me super busy anyway.

@Anaesthetist83 glad you’re home and recovering. Hope you’re being well looked after and get back on your feet soon.

I'm back at work and the time does go by a little quicker I must say :) Counting down until Sunday though ..... although I am trying to not get ahead of myself as I don't feel that optimistic. How are you hanging int there @Brambles7? It's not long to go now....

I hope your okay @DawnK77... If it hasn't worked this time I hope there are still options for you. Don't give up hope. x

@Anaesthetist83 - I hope you are feeling more comfy being back at home with hubby looking after you! How did the the check up at the clinic go?

@DawnK77 how are you doing?

@Anaesthetist83 how are you feeling now? Hope you’re doing okay and recovering!

@Happydayzz hope work is helping to take your mind off it? Isn’t this just the longest week in the world!!!!
I’m starting to feel a bit loopy with the wait, I have had some sort of cramps every day since transfer which has got my hopes up and I’m knackered too!
But it could quite well be just the drugs, I’m well aware. So trying to keep busy.
Have you been doing any nice things before you went back to work?

Hiya,
Hope your both okay, not long till Sunday!
I've not been great, think I'm a bit depressed. Trying to snap out of it. We have some in the freezer , got app back at clinic beginning of October. Need to decide what to do, the whole thing is bringing me down, I'm doubting myself and if I'm strong enough .. I am, but just don't feel it this week. I am normally a glass half full person so I'm sure I'll be okay soon.
Xxx

Work has been a welcome change of pace actually.... Blessing just to take my mind off it all. It was nice to have the two weeks off work however I think I went a little overkill on the research which made me feel quite depressed!!!

It's good you have some symptoms. I pray it will be good news for you! Ain't it crazy how it all plays tricks on you? I keep telling my other half I feel nothing different hence I'm not holding out much hope. Have you made some nice plans to pass the time on the weekend?

@DawnK77 It's okay just to feel down for a while. It's an emotional ride and it takes a lot of work to to keep picking yourself up however you just have to remember you still have a great chance with your frosite. It's probably better with a frozen transfer as it gives your body a chance to recover from all the meds from down reg and stims. Your strong enough hun... you just need a little down time and a good cry and then you will pick youself again xxx

Thinking of you all and the other ladies who are cycling.... It's got to work for some of us right?

Hi

@DawnK77 we can do Frosties together. It is such a rollercoaster. I should have been testing this weekend had all gone to plan, so also feel sad that we didn’t have that chance. An October FET will mean transfer early November, so I’m now hoping for some good news for Xmas.

I felt like an awful person this morning as one of my good friends who knows about our IVF told me she was miscarrying - whilst sad for her, part of me was just so gutted that I couldn’t even get that far, and I know they must only just have started trying for baby number 2. I’ve never ever had a glimmer of a BFP.

Good luck to those awaiting tests!

@DawnK77 I think it’s like a grieving process because you see the embryo being put in and you know it’s there. It’s a proper loss when you get a bfn. It’s hard to pick yourself up and again but you wouldn’t be doing this process if you weren’t strong already.
I’m glad you’ve got a frostie to try with too. FETs can sometimes go better as happydazz says.

@Anaesthetist83 I don’t think there’s anyone in our positions that wouldn’t find that hard to deal with. You’re sad for you and that’s just so normal. I cried my eyes out for me when my friend got pregnant 5 minutes (it felt like) after getting married.

You’ve had such a tough time with this cycle, you should be kind to yourself. Life doesn’t seem fair when any of us have to go through this process.

@Happydayzz apart from the cramps and tired I don’t really have symptoms and they could so easy be the drugs and my job being tiring! I’ve got a hair cut tomorrow and I plan to do some craft stuff to keep me sane. Almost getting to the point where I don’t want to test because I don’t want to see a negative.
I swing from feeling really positive to thinking it couldn’t possibly have worked. Emotions!!
Have you got something nice planned?

@Happydayzz how have you got on this morning? Did you test?

I am riding the high anxiety train right now. There’s a ridiculously only if I squint faint line there. But it’s there, just about. So don’t know what to make of that. DH is being sent out for a digital one for tomorrow on my proper OTD - as this was an Asda cheapie.

@Brambles7 I tested and nothing from my end. Not even a hint of a line which I kind of knew already. I will try a clearview test a little later today just to double check however I suspect this is where it ends for me :(

Fingers crossed fo you though. I really hope you get some exciting news.. please do keep me posted. Praying for you! xxxx

@Happydayzz I’m so so sorry! Definitely try with clear blue later. Ugh this is such a hard process. I hope if it is BFN you’ve got things lined up to treat yourself that you haven’t had during the process

Wish I could wave a wand and give you a good line.

I’m feeling cautious myself, it’s so early on. Will just see what happens tomorrow.

Really sorry to hear that Hapoydayzz XXX

Good luck for tomorrow's test Brambles ! Xxx

Thanks ladies. I tested again this morning just to be sure however it hasn't changed. I'm pretty gutted however I am trying really hard to remain optimistic.

How did the second test go @Brambles7? I am hoping its good news! We need some good news on this thread.

@Happydayzz thanks for asking! Really sorry yours wasn’t what you wanted. Do you have any thoughts for next steps?

Well mine again today was very very faint on 2 tests, but when I told the clinic that they weren’t worried. So they booked us in for a scan in 3 weeks. Am cautiously happy and also anxious!

That's great news for you @Brambles7. Keep thinking happy thoughts and hopefully all will be well and you will end up with twins! The scans will be so exciting. I do hope to get to that stage one day soon too. x

As for my plans I will be cycling at Reprofit next. I had already researched it during my time off so no time to waste on my end. I am still holding out hope so wish me luck!

Thank you @Happydayzz! We’re very cautious at this stage, but I have a really symptoms which is at least reassuring.

I’m glad you’ve already got more plans in place, I think it helps to think you’ve still got options. I really hope you also get a positive result in the not too distant future!