Limbo

[RoxyP]

Not sure where to post?! Conception or infertility, everyone seems to be either going through IVF on infertility or have only been trying a few months on conception board. Not really part of either, feeling a little lost and frustrated.
TTC #1 18 months
First course of Letrozole

Unexplained infertility
Never had a sniff of a bfp
AF due this on sat
Is anyone else in a similar position?

@squirrelnutkins1 his thoughts are keep calm and carry on, really not how I deal with things, total opposite I'm an absolute stress head, trying to manage it but it all gets a bit too much at times, I have a little cry in the shower then put my big nickers on and carry on, theres no other option really for me, I want a bfp so much. Not had counselling but iv head you can get it on the nhs if you are having treatment with them. Its stories like yours @Teddybear45 that makes me think stick with it! There's got to be a bfp soon! Good luck with your pregnancy x

@Jesskir89 - Two years!

Aww 💔 big hugs. It such a crappy journey isn't it but I guess we've just got to keep our mind on the destination. It'll all be worth it when we've got our babes in our arms.
You can self refer. You can ask your gp what your local free service is called. Think they offer up to 6 sessions. The initial assessment was ok, I was a bit worried as I've never done anything like it before but I think it'll do me good just venting.
I'm so stubborn and don't let myself cry but I think I really do need to have that release. It's not good it all being pent up inside, but it doesn't work for everyone so we'll see! @RoxyP

Really hope everything goes well for you. It's been a long tough road for you @Teddybear45

I don't know why I've just done it but just worked out I'd be 20 weeks this week 💔😭💔

Sorry to hear that @squirrelnutkins1 it's hard not to thing it I had a miscarriage a few years back at 16 weeks it's difficult. Councilling not a bad idea. And @Teddybear45 I didn't anticipate it taking that long I'm 30 in 3 weeks :(

@jesskir89 there is something about approaching a significant birthday that drives infertility deeper doesn't it? I'm 30 this year too, and trying not to let it feel like a bigger deal than it is, even if I'm not where I imagined I would be at this stage.

@mayihavesomecakeplease I've no idea! Not heard that one before but would make sense as I'm so depressed about turning 30 it's unreal :(

How's everyone doing?

@Jesskir89 Hi hun. How's things? Have you started the clomide now? I've got my follicle tracking scan tomorrow. Kinda nervous kinda excited xx

I understand taking Clomid but thought Letrazole was taken by people with cancer (like breast cancer) and then only if they've been through the menopause. I certainly learn things on this forum.

Good luck op, hope you are pregnant soon.

@Rachelover40 yeah it is for that! So I'm a bit scared of taking it! But it's now used as well for ovulation. Xx

Hiya girls I've been on chlomid 5 months now 100mg for the last 3. Why don't your join the new chlomid thread? There's people on there on letrazole too x

Jesskir89 Wed 03-Jul-19 14:51:32
@mayihavesomecakeplease I've no idea! Not heard that one before but would make sense as I'm so depressed about turning 30 it's unreal sad

You is one young spring chicken, lady!
The only birthday which depressed me was 20, because I didn't want to stop being a teenager.

@Rachelover40 thank you lol I'll get used to it soon I'm sure. I think a lot of it is because I saw myself with a family by the time I reached 30 x

Hello everyone sorry been away for a while and AF finally arrived with much disappointment so just taken my sending month of letrozole.
@Rachelover40 thank you fingers crossed 🤞🏻

Quite a few pains this time but always on my right even though I'm ovulating from my left... 🤷🏼‍♀️

@squirrelnutkins1 how you getting on with the counselling?

Ah I'm sorry ☹️ hope the pain isn't too bad and doesn't last long 💐 @RoxyP

Counselling is ok. Tbf it's not really what I thought. I do 95% of the talking. In a way it's a good thing because I'm so private I don't really tell anyone anything so it gets it all out there. I think it helps because she validates my feelings. Anything I say is ok and not judged. I've only had 2 sessions. I'm not sure if we'll go on to coping techniques or anything later on but we'll see. Tbh I just thought i HAVE to try and do something to help myself, I can't keep feeling so low and I have felt better so maybe it works more than I think. Xx

Had my follicle tracking scan yesterday and I had one mature follicle ready to ovulate anytime now so got to get on it! She said they don't normally track after the first month because they can see it's working but I can phone up to ask for it so I might do that just for my own peace of mind, plus there are a couple of new cysts so I want to keep my eye on them 🙄

@squirrelnutkins1 thank you x
That sounds positive, glad your feeling better or at least talking to someone!
I only got scanned for the first month so now I just go it alone for the next few months, I had one nice big follicle last month so hopefully that's a norm