Why do I feel so much worse now?

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Ttc for over 6 years. This year the ball has kind of got rolling for icsi/ivf and we know we should start our one free cycle early next year. I’ve had a hsg and most tests done now just waiting of ohs genetic and 4th sa results ( have to wait and see consultant in September) but I just can’t stop hoping it will happen naturally every month and when I get my period I break down and don’t want to see anybody the whole week. I cry at everything baby related because it’s just fucking everywhere. Why do I feel so much worse now? I think it might be the shock of actually being icsi is our only hope.

Hi Op. it’s so hard isn’t it-when you realise it’s not going to happen without medical intervention. I felt the same. What I would say is though -you will feel proactive once you get started -it’s good to feel like you are doing something. Best of luck.

Thankyou @mouse1234567 the days just seem to be getting harder to focus on anything else that wanting a child of our own. Months are dragging too, I know I can’t wait to get started but my anxious mind is telling me it will all be for a bfn and I can’t seem to stay positive at all lately. I’ve been asked today again if I want any children and was even told I’m running out of time. It’s made me cry and I’m fed up of having to pretend the comments or questions don’t upset me. Least know I now I would have been a brilliant actress I suppose lol x