IVF not going well.

[Pleaseletitbeme]

Hi,
I’ve been watching silently for a while.
Started short protocol last Friday and today was first follicle count and measurement.
The consultant said my right ovary hasbt responded (1x10mm follicle) and my left has 3x14mm and 1x 10mm.
He said it’s very disappointing and that due to the position of the ovary it’s mostky likely going to be non-accessible.
Repeat scan on Monday.
I feel incredibly disheartened and just want to curl into a ball and cry.

EC this morning.
Feel so nervous and sickly.

Good luck x

Good luck ❤️

Good luck x

Good luck with it 💐

Well more bad fucking news.
Can’t have embryo transfer even if we get that far as my bloods are showing signs of ovarian hyper stimulation
So any embryos have to be frozen. So that puts the odds against us even more.

Hi please, sorry you're having such a hard time of it. Ivf is a shitter, there's no two ways about it. Just on your last update, i did a freeze all cycle too cute too ohss and was told the stats are the same if not better with a frozen transfer so don't be disheartened. Sometimes it's a good thing to let the hormones out of your system before trying for the transfer. Best of luck and keep us updated 💐

As above, there’s some good evidence now that frozen cycles are more likely to succeed - there’s a big randomised control trial going on at the moment but some clinics have already moved completely to freeze all cycles so please don’t worry about that.

Only
Tow eggs from 5 follicles.
So disheartened

Try not to worry - all it takes is one to work!

Keeping my fingers crossed that they fertilise and freeze ok for you

Thanks so much everyone.
I just want to sit and cry.
I feel like such a failure.
I’m in quite a bit of pain. Just had 1g paracetamol and I’m half way home so hoping that’s going to kick in.
Our chances are less than 2%.
I’ve already written this cycle off in my head.

You can’t be a failure over something you have zero control over. I would say you are opposite actually as you have been brave enough to face the whole IVF rollercoaster. I really hope it works out for u x

So sorry to hear this OP you are not a failure it only takes one

I'm sorry Please, it's gutting to go through all this and not feel good about the outcome, on top of the physical pain. Be very kind to yourself today, I had a cycle cancelled before as they didn't think they'd get any eggs, I remember it felt awful but it will pass. 💐

I’m so weepy this afternoon. Feel rotten.
Normally I really am good at pulling myself together but I just can’t get a grip today

Be kind to yourself

Egg collection is mentally, emotionally and physically draining

Try and relax this evening with a nice glass of wine

Feel so much better. Had another g of paracetamol and a sleep.
My amazing consultant phoned and gave me a pep talk about being positive.
I’ve rallied round and I’m going to play in the snow and go for tea with my Dad for his Birthday.
So the rollercoaster continues.

So glad you're feeling a bit better. You're definitely not a failure, as pp have said, you've got zero control over any of this! You're literally doing everything possible to make it happen, and you've ended up with 2 eggs. Fingers crossed for lots of fertilization and development, it's in the hands of the scientists now. Keep us updated!

We get our first call in the morning.
Keeping my fingers and toes crossed.

I’m going through a nightmare, too. Got all the way to egg collection on Monday with what they thought were 3 follicles but it turned out one was a cyst and none of them had any eggs to collect. I’m self funded NHS but am now trying to decide whether to carry on with my next 2 cycles there or withdraw our money and go to a private clinic. NHS has a bit of a ‘one size fits all’ approach, it seems. I’ve not managed to get any tweaking of drugs or ‘let’s try this instead’ from the Consultant. They just suggested the donor egg route and that perhaps I’m headed for early menopause. I just don’t believe that’s the case as my FSH was only 9.5, not majorly high and my AMH 3.7. Yes, it’s low but my friend’s was at 1 and she had 10 eggs collected. I just don’t know what to to!

Thinking of you, Pleaseletitbeme, by the way. I know it’s a terribly tough time but stay calm. If you do have anything to implant, you want your body to be a relaxed, calm environment for it! X

Thinking of you this morning. I've had one child through IVF and am currently pregnant with another IVF baby. Both times we only had one embryo (having had 3 eggs that fertilised). I was referred to as a 'slow responder' and was at times advised to cancel the cycle. But the mantra I kept repeating was 'it only takes one!'.

At the time one of the nurses mentioned that she felt that some women's bodies are just not designed to produced numerous follicles and eggs and perhaps a 'lesser' response is just the bodies way of concentrating everything it needs to into that one egg. This really helped me second time round, I was less hung up on numbers and trusted that my body knew what it was doing.

I know how terribly hard it is to remain positive - IVF is like a series of hurdles, you get past one only to hit another. But I honestly believe that keeping a positive mindset really does help and that worrying about things that haven't happened yet only serves to make you feel awful and spiral downwards. And if you do get setbacks then deal with them as they come - you'll need time to process it - but you will come out the other side. Keeping everything crossed for you

Well we’ve just had the phone call.
One egg is dead
One has fertilised.
If it survives until Monday they will then either freeze it or grow it to day 5 and then freeze it.
Even if we get there this whole fucking thing is going to be drawn out until March/April when it will be defrosted. Then if it survives that it will be implanted.
The whole thing is just shit. A protracted torture.
I’m in quite a bit of pain this morning and have to go to work.
When I just want to curl up in bed on my own.

Sorry Please that things haven’t worked out as you desperately wanted. It’s true that that it only takes one egg, but the torture is in not knowing how it will all turn out. You will survive this and move on.

Lottielucy - get another professional opinion. My amh was lower than yours, fsh was really high and I got 4 eggs and a baby. My consultant didn’t mention donor eggs once. In fact, I mentioned it and he told me to stop talking about it! Go to another clinic. You don’t mention your age etc but I really don’t think it sounds like it’s time to give up. I don’t know if it’s possible for you to get pregnant naturally but there is more to fertility and getting pregnant than amh and fsh numbers. Really good luck x

Ah thank you Starship! I am pretty old to be honest! (It took me a hellava journey just to meet a nice man!) I’m 41 but apparently in the land of IVF it isn’t really THAT old.
I’ve been reading loads and my thoughts have changed every day this week! Today I am thinking, find a really good clinic, do one of these 90 day health and nutrition plans and then try again. I’ve read from academic papers that NHS Consultants should only advise counselling in my situation (the NHS Counselling, as nice as the lady was, was pretty rubbish as well!). I’ve been looking at Emma Cannon’s clinic, online 90 day plans and recipe books. I’m sure they’re all phenomenally expensive but I think withdrawing our funds from NHS at this point might be the way forward so that’s a start. Be great to hear more success stories from women who’ve has similar experiences to me! Thank you so far!