I know a lot of people are probably in this situation but I am losing all hope and motivation.
DH and I have been trying for a baby since we got married in August 2017. I'm 35 going on 36, he's 35. I've been diagnosed with PCOS but have known I've got it since I was 14. Clear HSG. I had a miscarriage at 11 weeks for my first and only pregnancy at the end of October. Good news is that I conceived naturally. We have begun trying again and no look so far. Doc has prescribed me Letrozole (instead of Clomid) and told me to start taking it from March. I know I've not tried it just but I have a real fear I may never get pregnant and the only chance I had at having a baby, I lost.
I feel unhappy with so many aspects of my life. My job is stressful and I think it's interfering with my chances of conceiving but we need the money so I can't just quit. I'm looking for other work and just can't find anything. I just feel like running away from everything. I don't know if it's the miscarriage and the failure to get pregnant again that's making me feel like this or if I really have just had enough of it all.
Both my sister in laws are either currently pregnant or just had babies, both will have 2 each very soon and I feel inadequate around them and well, everyone at the moment. It feels like everywhere I turn someone is announcing a pregnancy. I feel like a failure that doesn't function properly and so angry at myself for being in this situation.