Just needed to say this somewhere where I wouldn’t spoil the excitement for everyone else. My sister has just had a gorgeous little boy and I am genuinely delighted for her. She’s had a tough pregnancy and I am so relieved that her and the little one are safe and healthy. I’ve been completely supportive, always there for her, congratulated her ... but a bit of me is still devastated that it’s not me. We’ve been diagnosed with unexplained secondary infertility and looking into ivf. I’ve had a good cry, feel like a terrible person because I know my sister hasn’t had it easy. I don’t want to feel like this every time someone I love has a baby but just don’t know how to switch it off.
Anyhow not really looking for any answers as I suspect there are none. I think I just needed to write it down where people would understand and not think I’m awful.