I'm a bit of a mess and it hasn't started yet ....

[Movin]

Hi all,

TTC 3 years, had all IVF screening and apart from 1 rouge semen analysis (which we are waiting on results from further tests back) it's pretty much inconclusive. I'm 38 DH is 44.
Fertility appointment was due to be today to discuss dates, drugs process etc but it got rearranged to next week.
The reminder came through on my phone while I was on my way to work, cue me full on ugly crying on the bus to the degree that the woman next to me moved !! I'm normally so composed, work in a stressful environment but I can't hack this! My DH keeps asking if I have the appetites for this and I'm beginning to think I don't. IVF hasn't started yet and I'm a mess. I lay on the sweaty gym floor today and actually sobbed mid burpee ! Any survival tips ?! (Apart from drinking a bucket of wine and crying into my DH) HELP !

[Jegon]

Hi @Movin, can't give you any advice but can massively sympathise. I'm 38, DH to be is 55 and we have been trying for 12 months and have just been referred for fertility. I think it would be very strange if it wasn't affecting you, the monthly hormone merry-go-round, hope and sadness and then the thought that this might be your chance. Of course it's massive and sometimes you just need space to sob. Heart goes out to you and fingers crossed for your journey xx

[Ohluckyme]

Eek that sounds tough sorry! I have good days and bad days. I’m feeling excited at the moment as we’ve just been given the go ahead for ivf (just now waiting for funding) but I know that will change and I’m prepared for it. Few things that might help you; Yoga, councilling, acupuncture. Also alcohol his a bit of a depressive so might make you feel a little worse emotionally. But it effects everyone differently - personally I’ve decided to give it up completely (as well as caffeine) and have been eating healthily. I know it might not make a difference but going on a health kick is giving me something positive to focus on and a little bit of control in an otherwise uncontrolled situation x

[physicskate]

The worst bit is the anticipation. I remember if any little thing changed (like an appointment or which doc I was seeing) I was a mess for at least a week!!

Honestly it is ok once you actually know what's happening when...

Acupuncture and antidepressants really helped me!!!

[Movin]

Went home, managed not to cry and had some wine. Now coffee in hand off to distract myself with work and kill myself at the gym as my stress relief. Good luck everyone and thank you for your advice x

[hoping2018]

I cried soooo much in the lead up to ivf (and then a lot when hormones kicked in) completely normal! I got my bfp on 2nd fresh cycle - completely worth all the tears and stress. Best of luck xx