I don't usually post but I have so much suppport reading about others' experience over the last year... we had a transfer on May 18th of our last frozen embryo and was due to test tomorrow but I did a digital test this morning and it was negative. I did it early as I'm at my mum's before getting a train later to meet up with me DH and I know he'll be meeting me full of expectation and hope and I can't bear his sadness and grief. We had a miscarriage 17 weeks into what seemed like a great pregnancy earlier this year and it was a nightmare. I'm older than him and have 2 older children but so want to be able to give him a child; people are having children all around him and though he doesn't say it, I know it is a growing knot of grief within him. Because of my age I used donor eggs abroad and to start again will be financial hard/silly. I guess I just want to share and perhaps hear that there is hope as I really want to keep going but I'm a sensible, mature woman and this all seems mad... xx