Hi Everyone
Don't know what I'm expecting but here goes.
I'm 31 and have endo stage 3/4 - thankfully my pain is minimal but struggling to conceive after a missed miscarriage 18 months ago.
We've been trying over a year now and finally managed to get referred back to gynae (GP told me it was 'probably stress'). Saw a registrar at gynae appt a few months later, and the care was poor to say the least (I was being pushed to make decisions on invasive treatments I didn't understand within 90 seconds of walking into the room - thank goodness my super husband was there).
Had scan yesterday and it turns out I have another big cyst (orange-sized) on one ovary, so now I'm waiting to hear from my consultant about where we go next. I'm expecting surgery, although the wait will be long (I think I'll need to be referred to a specialist centre because of where the endo is).
I'm just so sick of it all. This is taking over my life. The care is so chaotic that I can't carry on with the things that make life good, and I'm expecting to need to cancel a load of plans we had made for the next few months due to this new scan finding. I have had to cancel a load of work (i'm self employed) for tests and appointments which have in 50% of cases been requested incorrectly or are rescheduled on the last minute.
How does everyone out there cope when things look dark?
I keep trying to tell myself that this will all be worth it, that I will become a mum, but it's looking increasingly slim. I have so many fears about the surgery and none of the doctors or staff I've talked to seem to give a damn about me.
I've tried yoga, healthy eating, unhealthy eating, seeing friends, avoiding friends, getting into my work and just can't find an answer. My husband is great but there's only so much he can do, and I'm really feeling the emotional toll of friends and family asking when I'm going to get pregnant - none of your jeffing business!
Apologies for rant but any tips or positive stories welcome.
Mrs P