Hi all
I’m currently on my 4th IVF cycle using donor embryos. My 2nd gave me a wonderful ds and we’re now about to use our last frostie (quite nervous about that). Would really like to give him a genetic sibling.
Anyway, I really need to vent. I HATE BUSERELIN. The injecting part doesn’t worry me too much as most of the time it doesn’t hurt. It’s the way it makes me feel that’s truly awful. I find myself crying over the slightest thing, real anger issues, tired all the time and I know that I’ve got the headaches to come in about a week. I know it’s for a good cause but I hate feeling like this. DH is wonderful and really supportive, but I find myself still resenting him for not actually experiencing this first hand (even though I know that he can’t). I go from being an emotional wreck to a moody cow who is totally unreasonable and full of self pity and resentment. I’m normally a logical person and when able to think clearly I know that this isn’t right, but it doesn’t stop the feeling of unfairness that I’m going through this and DH isn’t. He’s able to get over the failed cycles a lot quicker because nothing felt any different to him, and in the lead up to transfer he doesn’t have to do anything either. Like I said, he’s really supportive and understanding and cuts me a lot of slack but I hate that he can chose not to emotionally invest in the cycle until it’s worked whereas I don’t get that choice. I’m reminded every day when I stick a needle in myself, or have to keep track of a ton of pills. I really am feeling sorry for myself which I know isn’t helpful. I just needed a place to vent to people who are likely to ‘get it’.