Egg donation cold feet. Please talk sense into me!

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My story (for those who haven't heard me banging on about it before) I'm 38, ttc for nearly two years, diagnosed with POF. I've had one early miscarriage in June this year. Irregular cycles, intermittent ovulation. My ovaries are knackered basically

DH and I are flying to New Life in Greece next weekend for first part of egg donation treatment. Hoping to go for transfer in January next year.

I was SURE it was what I wanted. I thought I'd worked through the grief that I'll probably never have a biological child etc. Now I suddenly feel profoundly depressed, to the point where I don't even want to go! I should feel excited,but instead I just feel crushingly sad.

Talk sense to me please wise women of the board nobody wants to be a member of. I can't let my feelings stop me, so how do I overcome them? It just seems so terrifyingly real all of a sudden.

Can you donate eggs in Britain?

Thank you so much EarlgreyT and tigerdog Your support and encouraging words mean so much to me

You definitely didn't take over my thread EarlgreyT I found your posts extremely helpful and reassuring. It's so nice to get perspective from someone who has actually been through the same thing. Egg donation still seems a massively taboo subject despite its widespread use. I wish you a happy and healthy nine months

tigerdog it is a constant source of amazement to me that we are all still here fighting on through all the shit. The strength we all have is incredible and I just hope that we all eventually reach our end goals.