It feels like everyone is pregnant but me :(

[babydustneeded]

4 women at work are pregnant, 2 of my close friends are pregnant, 4 have had babies since I started ttc. Another friend told me she was pregnant yesterday and although I am of course happy for her it was all I could do not to cry .

I already have a 2 year old DD who I am so grateful for and part of me thinks I should just be happy with my lot as plenty of people don't have that but I can't help but feel 'why not me' whenever another pregnancy is announced.

It's been 18 months ttc with no sign of a bfp, had day 21 bloods recently and got day 3 bloods this week so will see what GP says after that. Have been referred for a pelvic ultrasound and DH for semen analysis but I have no idea how long the waiting list is. I am fairly sure something is not right with me, my cycles are ranging from 26-36 days and I'm not getting any positive opk's but I have only been doing them once a day so will do twice a day this month.

Sorry this is so long, I haven't spoken to anyone is real life about our struggle so just offloading here really.

I hear you OP and am in a similar position. Don't post as much about it now but not looking like the second DC we wanted is going to happen after several years of trying, 2 early MCs and me now into my forties. Lots of pregnancies around, also people saying 'It would be terrible to go back to nappy changing now' and mehaving to smile and nod while thinking 'actually, I'd gladly do it!'

The baby bombs are tough to deal with. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. if there is anything wrong then hopefully it will show in the tests and you can see where you stand a bit more, but I feel for you.

I can really relate to how you feel as we spent 15 months ttc DC1 and tried for DC2 as soon as we could and they are nearly 3 years apart. In the meantime loads of colleagues were announcing pregnancies. Have you looked into monitoring your fertility by checking your cervical mucus and tracking temp changes as well as the opk tests? That is what worked for me. Also, I found it was when I became less focussed on getting pregnant, that that was when i did in fact become pregnant. Easy for me to say I know but if you try to focus on the positives of not being pregnant, eg being able to do certain sports, or booking a holiday, that might help. For me, I think it was booking tickets for Glastonbury after we'd been ttc for over a year and had decided it wasn't going to happen. A few months later, bam! ( I did still go to Glastonbury by which time I was 3 months in and all the smells made me feel sick).

Thank you for your kind words everyone, it helps to talk about it somewhere.

I haven't tried temp tracking at cm, I might give it a go next month but I'm worried about causing more stress to myself and having another thing to think of and track. I'm spending a huge amount of time cycling through thoughts about what the problem might be, what can be done, what am I doing wrong, what if xyz doesn't work, is it worth trying xyz, if it doesn't work now the age gap between dc's will be bigger than I wanted etc etc, I probably need to chill out a bit! Easier said than done!

I'm not in exactly the same position babydustneeded (TTC #1) but I totally understand. A friend of mine announced her pregnancy yesterday (see my feeling-sorry-for-myself thread 'feel so crap'! ) and I feel irrationally upset and even a bit angry...how can we be trying all this time and other people seem to DTD once and bang! they're pregnant?

I got fed up with all the OPKs, tracking CM (I honestly don't notice a difference half the time) do this, do that etc so I bought an Ovusense monitor and it's great to see I actually ovulate. You just wear it at night like a tampon and take the reading in the morning. No faffing around with OPKs/CM etc. which was doing my head in!

I've not had the chance to try it out yet as I've had a few months with tests and having to abstain from DTD, so this is my first month giving it a proper go, so to speak!

I also wrote this on another thread about OPKs which might help:

Speaking to a private doctor, she said there was a reason why OPKs don't work for me very well. She said my FSH levels on day 3 were in the high range of normal so this meant when they did the day 21 test, although I had ovulated and the FSH level had risen, because it was already high-ish anyway on day 3, there wasn't enough of a difference for the OPK to detect on day 21. (I may have this wrong, it could be the LH level! but either way this is the reason.)

Don't know if this helps but it really put my mind at ease. I used OPKs every month for last 16 months and have only had a 'positive' once or twice in all that time so I was convinced I wasn't ovulating.

Good luck x

babydust, sorry you're feeling this way. I totally get it. It's horrible being baby bombed.

2 of my close cousins are both expecting their third any day now, one of them is a month younger than me. I don't even have one yet! Then a colleague is pregnant again with her 3rd in 4 years... She gave birth just after we started ttc and she's already pregnant with her next one.

Some days I live in fear of certain friends/colleagues/family in case they make an announcement. Other days I'm fine. It doesn't help my family is ridiculously fertile and all my cousins seem to have two or three quite easily and quickly and so young. Argh!

Really feel for you.