22 cycles... how can I stay positive

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I've been through 22 failed cycles in total ranging between timed intercourse, ovulation inductions, IUI, IVF and FET. In between all those cycles somehow I fell pregnant naturally and conceived my only child who is now 5.. I'm 34 and been trying for 10 years.. seen and consulted many doctors locally and abroad, gone under many tests, investigations and even controversial treatments. Nothing seems to work yet I wonder how I fell pregnant naturally and had no problems what so ever during my pregnancy. I'm not sure if I should just give up or not. Everything looks promising, good ovarian reserve, beautiful endometrium, good quality eggs and embryos, yet it just won't happen, I don't want to look back and regret not taking every opportunity and chance! Yet I can't seem to stay positive enough to continue this journey. Donor eggs/ sperms or even surrogacy is not an option for me plus why would I go down that routine when there doesn't seem to be a problem with either my eggs, my endometrium or even my husband's sperm. I want to be pregnant again and I want the baby to carry our DNA.. that's the whole joy of it as far as I see it,, I won't be happy any other way. I just need help to keep going, need hope.. don't know where to turn to

It's so hard. I've been ttc around 40 cycles, with one miracle baby in the middle who is now 2. We have a known issue and are now doing ivf to try for number 2. It wears you down, but I've found infertility is just a part of me now. It's a way of life. I have eternal hope that I will have another child as otherwise I would find it too hard to cope. Hugs to you, I hope you decide on a path forward and have success xx

OP I feel for you, and you're amazing for having undergone that number of cycles. We had unexplained infertility for six years, culminating in a failed IVF attempt. As much as I wanted children, I couldn't have gone down that road again as I found it emotionally devastating. We were in the process of working with Social workers to adopt when I had a miracle pregnancy. DD is now 13, and when I look back there are a number of lifestyle changes I made that may (or may not!) have contributed. I changed my diet, eating clean, unprocessed food and no alcohol for a month coupled with high strength vitamin tablets (can't remember the name but they were for females and reproductive etc). Four months later I was pregnant. I used to hate when people told me about their miracle BFPs, but all these factors came together for me. Strangely, I still think of myself as having fertility problems even now as it took me so long to conceive. I wish you every success on your journey.