42, pregnant first time trying with number 1... several autoimmune issues later over 7 years and no baby number 2....I am usually (well in the past 2 years) fine but some days...for hugely unrelated matter I get a pang of desperation....it crashes my breath in my lung, it makes a huge knot in my throat and I want to punch the world....there is worse (no children at all..) but hell it hurts so deeply
Just had to get it out today...