Jealous and upset

[MaccaPaccaismyNemesis]

After a few years of ttc I'm finally getting some help from the NHS and am in the initial stages of blood tests and scans. I have a DC but no success in having a full term pg since then. Have had 2 miscarriages early on but not even come close for over a year now.

Found out today that yet another person is having their second DC. Although they were careful in how they told me, and I am pleased for them I am so upset for myself and a streak of jealousy is running through it all. Why is this so painful and heartbreaking. Watching DS play on his own makes me feel so sad for him and for us.

I'm sorry. It's hard

I can relate to this op, we were ttc, then onto ivf with DE and now adoption. 5 years later and 11 pregnancy/birth announcements (from others) I totally hear you. I've felt that sadness for myself too and while I'm please for friends and colleagues I still have the ffs another pregnancy announcement that then goes full term to beautiful babies and I'm still freaking waiting! It's hard.

I can relate too. I have endometriomas on my ovaries. One is rather large. I ovulate most months, have sex, think I'm pregnant then come on my period. My 3yo dd was conceived naturally but I did nothing special to conceive her, it was random. Consultant has said they will monitor but I should keep trying. She is starting to call the cat her sister! And when she says she has no one to play with it makes me feel so crap! And I don't know about you but I feel bad getting upset because I have a healthy child when my sil can't conceive any.

And now another announcement. I know drowning your sorrows is a bad idea but fuck it i'be cracked open the wine.

I will be coming 3 years TTC baby no.1 in the new year, 2 early miscarriages over a year ago and nothing since. Within that time 8 babies have been born within my close family/friend circle. And another 2 on the way!! Like you we are just starting the NHS investigations.. we were meant to start last year then fell pregnant so they sent us away to try again! I had a HSG a few weeks ago and convinced myself this was my month but AF arrived yesterday. Tonight I am mainly drinking wine, eating chocolate and feeling sorry for myself...

Oh stay strong. It will happen. We were ttc dd for about four or five years then I hugged some phallic bloody statue in Vietnam! I'm not going back there to do it again! Seriously though it can be so random sometimes. I'd thought it would never happen then it did. Now I'm going through it again.