It's my 32nd birthday today. As much as I try and have a fun day i feel so sad and even lonely? Even though I have fab friend and wonderful husband I want children s much and feel lonely as its so hard to be honest with people abut how I feel. Even my wonderful husband as we have male factor infertility. We're trying drug treatment but ultimately no where near starting Icsi still. I definitely do not resent him as its not his fault but I feel a bit disappointed that he's not more upset about the situation. He's so matter of fact which is a good thing I'm sure. I just feel like we've been through so much and don't feel he appreciates how hard it is. I don't want an award or anything. I don't know.