Just that really. I just need a rant. Sitting on the floor at my mother in laws house. I have just found out that my SIL and her new husband are pg after 1 month of trying. They already have 4 kids between them. I'm now having to hold it together and smile while I feel just awful inside. I don't resent them, I resent the situation. I do have a child and I'm very grateful, but it was a long journey involving ivf and mc to get there. I would love a sibling for him but I expect it to be a long and hard journey and it may not even be possible. Why is this how it is? I also feel awful that I feel this way about it, but I can't help it. Anyone else?