On waiting list for ICSI - But am i pregnant naturally... Help!

[ChitterChat]

So... im 5 days late on my period and the obvious wishful thinking is "Am i pregnant".

I say wishful thinking because me and my fiance are on the waiting list for ICSI fertility treatment after TTC for over 7 years with no luck - he has a low sperm count but as far as fertility with me is concerned everything is fine (so the doctors tell me).

My periods have been a bit irregular over the past few months as i have lost 3 stone in preparation for treatment so i've been trying to think that it could just be late... but it's never usually this late.

A few days ago i had slight cramping, nothing major and a small bit of dark brown fluid after wiping - sorry for the TMI.

My boobs are tender and slightly tingly and i've been more tired than usual but apart from that i feel normal.

You hear all the time that plenty woman end up falling pregnant naturally after TTC for so long but i can't help but feel that this just won't happen for us and how could i possibly be pregnant after 7 years with no luck so far. Am I setting myself up for a fall when my period does come - if it does.

Has anyone else experienced this or has anyone else fallen pregnant after TTC for a long time and told they would need to undergo treatment?

Really scared to do a test incase it's BFN - Don't know if I could face it after trying for so long already. :( xx

You need to test...
You'll drive yourself mad symptom spotting otherwise
and a hand hold for you, and everything crossed for a BFP xx

@SpareChange

Thank you!... i know, you are so right! Just need to bite the bullet and do it... xx

Just test.. You're torturing yourself.

So did you test then ChitterChat? I really hope it was good news!!

You need to test, natural pregnancy is possible with a low count, you may have beaten the odds!

So here's an update!... Tested last night and it was BFN!... Was absolutely distraught... sobbing, you name it, that was me :(

This morning - still no sign of AF but this afternoon.... she arrived, and with avengence might i add - the worst cramp i think i have ever experienced. Suppose that's what i get for being optimistic :(

Maybe next month.... this is torture :(

Thanks everyone for the support xxx

Bollocks, I'm sorry. Get the wine and chocolate out.

It's truly horrible when u get your hopes up and then get a bfn. Really feel for you. ?Xx

Very un-MN hugs for you, OP
It sucks, it really does.

Can you chase up the waiting list to see if you can get a date for the start of your treatment?

i'm so sorry

Thanks everyone! Feeling a bit better today now that i've got over the disappointment... H2B has taken it worse though. Obviously with the fertility problem being from him he doesn't feel... "like a proper man", if thats the right way of putting it and is extremely insecure at the moment thinking if it doesn't work out then i will leave to find someone who can father my child. Despite telling him that yes, i do want children, but it it's not with him then i'm not going to look elsewhere - and i genuinely mean that.

We have our wedding booked for July 2017, and we are at the top of the waiting list so just going through the motions at the moment of more blood tests, scans etc... i mean, how many times can someone be poked and proded with needles etc.... so draining... but i know it has to be done.

Just feeling like we are clutching at straws... eggs in one basket so to speak, and its a lot of pressure on any individual and a relationship. I know everyone else going through this will be in the same position so can sympathise. xxx

I have totally regular periods. The period due 2 weeks after we got 'The news' that we could not have children it was 10 days late. I did a test even though I knew there was no way. Weird the way your body does that. It was BFN BTW.