Hi. Have NCed for this.
I'm due to start my second IVF cycle any day now, but for the last couple of weeks, I'm seriously wondering if we're doing the right thing going ahead with it.
I'm 40, and will be 41 at least if and when I ever have a child. DP is 48 and has both physical and mental health problems (which are controlled with medication). My brother also has serious mental health problems, which have erupted recently. Financially, we're not flush, but we have enough, but obviously will have to make sacrifices if we do have a child. We've both been under a lot of strain recently (for various reasons, including the IVF and my brother's health) and we're not communicating well. I feel quite distant from him.
So although my heart really wants a child, my head is thinking that proceeding with the IVF is not a good idea. We're too old, we're not pulling together, and the possibility of having a child with serious health problems terrifies me.
Also, I've had 2 MMCs before starting IVF, and obviously a failed first cycle, and the thought of having to go through all that waiting and hoping and being disappointed again is just...it's too hard.
I'm plodding through the motions at the moment, but I really don't know what to do. I'd quite like to run away.
Has anyone else felt like this, and if so, what did you do?
Thanks for reading.