Infertility
Ridiculously convinced I'm pregnant although I can't be
ChampagneTastes · 19/10/2014 11:05
Have been TTC DC2 for nearly two years. Have had all the usual tests (bloods, sperm, scan) and all appears normal. I'm 35. Last month I was convinced that we had finally done it; I've been avoiding alcohol and caffeine and generally living very healthy. We DTD lots at the crucial time. However my AF turned up on day 27 (I have a cycle of around 25-28 days) so after a bit of sobbing I accepted the fact and turned my attention to this month.
But. I have come down with flu, I have awful headaches. I feel nauseous. My breasts hurt. There is a massive part of me that is completely convinced that I'm pregnant. I know I'm being ridiculous but the nausea is very similar to what I experienced in the early days of my first pregnancy. I realise I'm grasping desperately at straws but is it possible or have I finally lost all grip on reality?
purplemeggie · 19/10/2014 11:23
Just maybe, Champagne. Can you test? I have a cousin who had "normal" periods for the first four months of all of her pregnancies, so it can happen.
It could also be that you want this so much that you have convinced yourself that flu is pregnancy - I have done this too - our minds play horrible tricks on us when all we want is a little bundle to fill our lives.
But you need to test to know. Good luck...hope your instincts are right xxx
ChampagneTastes · 19/10/2014 11:23
Oh and the nausea (no actual vomitting) has been going on for about four days now.
Anyone? Any experience? Please?
ChampagneTastes · 19/10/2014 11:29
Thanks purple. I do have a test but I've been putting off using it because I sort of know that I'm being ridiculous. I can't claim that my period was any different to usual.
I have done a positive ovulation test which I now see can also be positive if pregnant.
ChampagneTastes · 19/10/2014 11:37
Ah no. Digital test says I'm not pregnant so that's that. Guess I'm just ill. 
ChampagneTastes · 19/10/2014 15:04
Thanks Purple. I got myself all over-excited there for a moment.
Solaia · 20/10/2014 23:04
I have done this same thought process every month for over 3 years now. Even though I know we have unexplained infertility I still think maybe, just maybe, this is the month. I think that's the killer blow with 'unexplained' rather than a specific thing - the crushed hopes each and every month are horrific.
I know it's hard but the only way I get through it now is to expect it's not worked, and expect AF to turn up. I no longer plan 'I can't go on that night out cause I might be pg' I plan 'I can't wear a white bikini that weekend because I have AF'... Silly examples but you get the picture!
Fingers crossed it works for you soon but I don't think symptom spotting and raised hopes are healthy. Natural and understandable but ultimately heartbreaking! 
ChampagneTastes · 23/10/2014 15:14
I'm sorry Solaia - that's shit. And you're right; it's not healthy but now that I've started, it's an impossible habit to break. I know when I'm ovulating and from there it's just a countdown. I'm TWWing my life away at the moment.
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