I want to have stretch marks

[FudgeMuffin]

I want to have stretch marks and sleepless nights and puke stained clothes.
I want a messy house, no time for myself and the constant fear that I'm failing.
I want tantrums and bedtime battles and chaotic mornings, lost toys and missing socks.
I want to stop wanting, to start living, not for myself but for another precious little life.
I want to forget the pain and grief and feel the innocent excitement and anticipation of things to come.
I want to stop feeling hate and resentment at the sight of a baby on board badge.
I want to be filled with love and worry for a new soul growing inside me.
I want to be a mother but in my heart I know I never will.

Beautiful words, I feel your pain.

Life can be so cruel. There are times when it appears as though you have everything in life and yet the truth is that you feel that you have nothing at all. ??

Thank you Swimming

Bless your heart x

That's beautiful, perhaps you should take up creative writing as you certainly have a talent. You never know, writing may help to ease the pain and give you that little bit of escapism for a while. Be expressive and positive in your words. Positive mind, positive body, you may be blessed with the child you so desperately crave and need. I wish you loads of luck x