Feeling devastated today as i got a disappointing hormone blood result. My FSH level was 20 on cycle day 3!!!!! This basically means that i am borderline menopausal and i am only age 38!!!! Been trying for a baby for 18 months with no success with my lovely husband who has no children of his own. Always very fertile in the past as i have 3 children from a previous relationship whom i conceived easily. Can't understand how this has happened. Got reffered to an NHS infertility clinic in the spring of this year and had a scan which revealed i had a few ovarian cysts. With the cysts and abnormal blood results the clinic concluded that i had polycystic ovaries even though i asked them on several occasions if i was having an early menopause. Their answer was no, don't be silly. So anyway, they prescribed me Clomid last month which was to be started at the beginning of my next cycle following a blood test. Anyway, my period came last Saturday. I waqs meant to have the bloods taken on day 2 but as it was a weekend i couldn't so i had bloods taken on Monday, cycle day 3. The Clomid was meant to be started also on days 2 or 3 but i preferred to wait until my next cycle after i had got this latest lots of blood results. By the way, my last FSH was 11.3 which the clinic described as 'reasonable'. I was getting prepared and feeling hopeful that the Clomid was going to work as the clinic had more or less told me i had PCOS and would most likely get a good response from the Clomid. To my utter horror and disbelief i phone the clinic this morning for my results to be told that my FSH is 20 and i am menopausal and there is nothing that can be done to help me. I'm 38 for christ sake, not fucking 48!!!!!!!!! The nurse whom i spoke to whom i have met is in her 50s and was very dismissive and short with me. She told me very matter of factly that an FSH of 20 was very bad and i am most certainly menopausal. This same woman assured me just 3 months ago that i wasn't menopausal but most likely has PCOS. The consultant whom i visited a month ago also backed this up. I feel cheated, let down and devastated and very bitter. The clinic just didn't seem to give a shit, it's like they wanted to mwash their hands of me. Stupid bastards!! I'm feeling very unfeminine, empty and completely devastated, almost like someone has died. I have even taken to having half a bottle of wine this evening to try and ease the pain of my pathetic situation. I very rarely drink alcohol. I just can 't accept i am in menopause at such a young age and heartbroken that i can never again have another child and very angry at those incompetant twats at that infertility clinic. Will be making a complaint for sure.