Best friends baby due today. TTC for 5 years

[FortyFacedFuckers]

Feel so sad and such a shit friend I want to be happy for her but I am so jealous. Come and give me a kick up the arse!

And I have a gorgeous 8 year old so feel as though I have no right to be upset and should be happy with what I have but I can't get rid of that desperate longing I always wanted 4 kids.

Forty
I totally understand you. You are lucky to have one child but I completely get that sense of having an incomplete family.
I have 2 and have been having troubles to have more, and j feel exactly the way you do.
I am not jealous anymore (used to) but I just get sad and feeling sorry for myself.
And I know I am lucky but still, I would love 4..

So have a good cry
A good moan
And then go shopping for the baby and get excited for her
At least there are babies around you :-)

Thank you feeling a little bit better this morning. I hope you manage to complete your family.