Egg Donation Emotion

[ringo65]

Hi

Yesterday my DH & I were told following lots of tests that the best chance of us conceiving was to look at egg donation.
I am 39 and it appears that all things are pointing towards the fact that my body has started that menopause journey...we have been trying for a long time so it was upsetting to learn that the best chances are egg donor.

I am feeling positive today about it, but I am worried that I would forever be thinking that's really not my baby, although I know that I would be nurturing the baby in my womb and really it is my baby just genetically it isn't...but its a thought at the back of my head - its very hard to explain.

Are these natural thoughts and has anybody else been down this road and had these worries before hand, will they pass once I am pregnant?

Thank you, I'm a bit mixed up. x

[ringo65]

Thank you colafrosties xx

[ringo65]

Hi all

Since I last posted a lot has happened, I am on the page of ED and thanks to all your help I really appreciate it. I have no friends or family that have been through this so knowing I am not alone is a massive help.

We went back to CARE for a chat with their counselor and then spent about 4 hours with the nurse, 4 hours we were there in total, but I felt so much better after...we discussed how it works and was promptly put on the list...this was 20th June and yesterday I got a call to say they have found a match!

I cannot believe it, I feel very lucky at the moment as I know some ladies have been waiting a long time and I expected the same, DH & I are mulling it over this weekend...the genetics are a goodish match, more of DH than me...which I think I am happy with.

This is only the beginning and for me it has been like a whirlwind the time of finding out I cannot have children to this point has been fast, and no treatment has been had yet not IVF or anything, CARE are concerned that this is all too quick and want to make sure I am ready as I have not had long to get used to the idea.

I am counting my blessings and I so hope that it all works out okay as this is only the beginning of the journey and I know a lot of heartache and anxiety is yet to come.

[JT2013]

Hi ringo65

I read your post nodding my head- I'm 39 and I've just been told my AMH/FSH levels make it near impossible for me to have a biological child. Partner has low sperm count too so really not great. The consultant I saw recommended DE ICSI and although I had doubts, they've gone. I don't know whether I'm fooling myself but the need to be a mother is so all consuming. I'd love to have a child that was related to me and my family but (assuming I'm lucky enough for it to work) it'll be my partner's biological child and I'm told that it's only men that have that primal need to procreate women are programmed to nurture (told this by a new age acupuncturist, but it seems to make sense)

Sorry, I've just realised I hijacked your post but I just wanted to ask Opheliabump, colafrosties and Pocket1 how many attempts they had before they fell pregnant?

[JT2013]

Thanks colafrosties, congratulations to you and ringo65.
x

[FreckleyGirlAbroad]

Ringo, have just read your thread and was wondering how things were going and did you accept the donor? Fwiw, I was exactly the same age as you when I found out my FSH levels were too high and AMH way too low to conceive using my eggs so we didn't hesitate in going forward with ed conception. I'm now 31 weeks pregnant, with the occasional wobbly moment, but just living every minute of the kicking and wriggling going on inside me and feel immensely lucky and grateful.

Try having a look at epigenetics online as it shows you a while different side to the DNA debate.

Best of luck and pm me if you want any further advice.

[KosherBacon]

I have a ten month old DS following donor egg treatment at Care in Manchester. We had treatment due to a genetic condition I had rather than infertility.

I can honestly say it was the best decision I have made. I love my son so much. Sometimes I look at him and my heart bursts. He's amazing, I grew him in my tummy, I breastfed him, I nurtured him and played with him and made him the personality he is today. We chose a donor with similar physical characteristics to me, yet he came out just looking like his daddy. People at work tell me he has my eyes and nose. I don't tell everybody, close friends and family know, but not every Tom dick and Harry needs to know.

Yes, I sometimes think about his donor and the half sibling she had from her treatment. For me that was why I chose to have treatment in the uk. It was our decision as parents to use donor eggs but it should be entirely out sons decision to find out more about his donor and we shouldn't take that away from him. We used donor eggs when there was a waiting list for recipients rather than donors to be matched and we could have gone abroad for quicker treatment, but decided against it for this reason.

[resipsa]

We're waiting for a match at Care in Manchester. Thank you for your great post!

[ringo65]

Haven't been on for a while, thank you for all the lovely messages.

To update you all we had 2 embryos transferred on 27th Sept, the donor Care found we were happy with. I tested positive on Sun 13th Oct..4 days later I had a lot of bleeding...which calmed down, but Monday it came back with a vengeance and we ended up in A&E, the clots and dripping blood was horrendous, the consultant told us there was nothing in my uterus following a tummy scan.

Today we were at Care for a review and an internal scan..it turns out that I may have been carrying twins and one miscarried and although only tiny a little heartbeat was seen. I'm 6w1d today and we are over the moon x

[KosherBacon]

Ringo65- Congratulations, that is wonderful news, I hope you have a happy, healthy pregnancy and baby.

[kittycatmum]

Hi I don't think I'm in the right thread but hopefully someone can point me in the right direction. I would love to talk to other women who have children via donor eggs. I have two year old twins whom I adore but sometimes I do struggle a bit with the genetics issue etc. I would love to see how other people think as I don't know anybody else in my situation. Many thanks x

[KosherBacon]

There is a group called the donor conception network. They have national meetings but also local groups too. Check out their website and books.