I am not expecting to get much of a response but Im hoping that an offload will help me. That said i anyone has any wisdom for me I'd love to feel better.
This is a long one.
I feel hard done by. There i said it. I am a proud mum of a beautiful boy, I have a lovely DH, and we live in a relatively nice home. We have a car, ive recently been able to learn to drive, ive just gotten more freedom and things arent all that bad. I know that deep down. BU
We have some debt, we are not wealthy, we work hard altho im fortunate enough to be part time.. I feel like we dont get any breaks... When comparing ourselves to friends or frenimies i suppose! Anyway our lack of property ownership irks me but tht isnt whats hurting.
Im orphaned, im 25 and telling you that as although any age is a crappy age to of been orphaned, i feel i was so young. 10 when my mum died 17 when my dad died. I feel I missed out, and am still missing out. Thts also not what is really hurting.
I have trouble conceiving. Thats what stings. We tried for 14 months (i mean rigourous daily and by the end unenjoyable trying), we were rewarded. But we couldn't go through that level of focus again. It nearly broke us. We are now 16 months into ttc#2. Have PCOS and shit cycles. Told to be grateful for my son, and I am, truly. But is it so bad to want more? Arg i need a kick up the butt.