The Padded Cell

[queenrollo]

so....sometimes I just want to come on and go

RRRAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

or

or type lots of swear words.

and not have to explain why.

or don't have time to, but need to let it out.

or don't want to clog up the other threads with a rant.

So I've built us a padded cell.......

I'm new here, though I've been lurking a while. Today I felt the need to vent my annoyance at something in a place where other folk might understand.

I'm just getting along on the way of a pcos diagnosis after nowt doing ttc wise for 16 months.

So, on the hospital website trying to find a phone number for the dept doing ultrasounds (to see just how cysty I am). Click on 'Scanning and Ultrasound' on the clinics page. No suggestion that this is a link to the Maternity Hospital - I'm thinking it'll cover MRI, ultrasound, x-ray, the lot.

First page that takes you to? Big picture of a baby scan. I'm annoyed at how much that annoys me...

hi abzs

rubbish isn't it? when I went for my cons appt I was sat in the waiting room with loads of pregnant women. I cried when I realised the last time i sat in that room (and almost 6 years to the day) i was waiting for my 20 week scan.
I looked around the room and found one tiny sign which said 'please ask a member of staff if you would rather wait in a private area'......and the walls were covered with 'your new baby' 'your birth' 'breastfeeding' posters. I found one board that had posters about ovarian/cervical cancer.......the only thing about infertlity in the whole room was one tiny leaflet about improving your diet

Just wanted to say GOD I AM SO FUCKED OFF TODAY.

A friend I have not seen for 6 months called me to say she is up the duff. Put the phone down, sobbed.

I know the girl I sit next to is pregnant because I accidently saw an email her DH sent her saying it 'donlt worry I KNOW IT IS A SHOCK BUT WE WILL BE FINE'
She has literally only just got nack from matetnity leave. Instead of feeling sorry for her as this is clearly unplanned I canlt even look at her and just want to shout FUCK OFF in her face.
Why is it so easy for everyone else

God I am such a bitch

Rant over, thank you I feel so much better

Rrrrrraaaaaaahahhhhhhhhhhh

(1st post here, lurked here few weeks after lurking in Conception optimistically for 1 year of ttc. Now on Waiting list for IVF and hope to pay for first cycle in Spring. And last night yet another friend announced they are pregnant. So happy for the of course (!) but you know...)

Oooh

This looks more like my kind of place. May I join too, please?

So TTC for 29 cycles now and completely fed up. After salpingectomy and unsuccessful adhesiolysis earlier this year, 29th cycle was IVF, which resulted in first BFP ever and then very early MC on wedding anniversary
Been feeling very down ever since.

Friday lunchtime
MrKC: Do you want me to tell you if anybody is pregnant?
KC: well obviously somebody is, otherwise you wouldn't have said that
MrKC: Well I don't need to tell you
KC: Well you might as well, I've got to find out eventually
MrKC: Well x and y are expecting number DC22. X is 20 weeks today
KC: How on earth are some people so fecking fertile? Their DC1 is only 16 months and they're 20 weeks with DC2! It's SO not fair. When's it our turn?
MrKC: They want to know whether we're going to meet up for lunch with them
KC: No

Then flounced out and sat in front of TV with a bag of Kettle Chips and cried for an hour, very much in the style of a teenager having a strop.

And now I'm fat too after too much comfort eating.

Should have posted DC2, not DC22! Now that would be impressive.

DC22! I have to admit I was impressed.....
I have to say, it fucking sucks. Feeling shit, I just can't feel positive at the moment because I just feel in my heart that next year I'll be shedding the same tears for the same reasons. I should be feeling positive that the ball is now rolling because we've got our consultant appointment in February but actually, I've just realised that my 'infertility' is official and real. I've been off the pill for over two years and I know some people try for much longer but I've passed the point where I believe it can happen and it fucking sucks

Lenore 123 ......Worse than that though was the time when someone asked me if I was pregnant (I'd put some weight on was all) and if that wasn't bad enough, a second person whom I'd confided in about my conception malfunction proceeded to announce to the whole office that actually, No, Lenore was not pregnant as she (Lenore, i.e. me) couldn't have children. She did it in my defence, but still...Ground?, open?, swallow?..yes please

Lenore123 I award you a special prize for crappest experience. Compared to this, viewing two pregnant colleagues who have become pregnancy buddies giggling together like schoolgirls is but a trifle.