Well, of course I'm rolling in it. Currently I get just £34 a week IS, because I had no choice but to accept the only terms offered to me of a repayment plan of almost 50% of my benefits each week when I HAD to get a social loan to cover the costs of my disabilities (that ATOS claim aren't disabling enough) and costs of my DC's disabilities, as THEY keep getting turned down for DLA.
I went and wasted that money on crack or something. I must be entirely mistaken in thinking that the vast portion of it went on replacing my DS2's broken nebuliser. The NHS had put me on a waiting list, that is 3 years long. The only thing keeping him from being permanently hospitalised for those 3 years wait is that nebuliser that I bought, and an paying back for at £33 a week out of the £71 income that I am meant to have.
The rest of the loan? A new kettle tipper to prevent me from scalding myself if when more like I have a seizure while mid pour. Also on new Anti-suffocation pillows at a cost of £60 a pair, that have to be replaced every 6 months or they are not effective.
Yeah, I'm fucking ROLLING in it. Every other penny that comes into this house is meant to be to cover the children's needs. Yet I am having to pay bills out of the money that is meant to feed and clothe them because I had to fork out £350 to replace something the NHS are meant to provide for my DS2 that makes the difference in his quality of life between being stuck in a hospital bed for 3 years to access the medicine he needs to bloody BREATHE (kind of essential, yeah?!) or being at home and attending school, and seeing his friends.
But, yeah, I guess I'll have to hit myself a few more times with that 2 by 4 before I actually believe I'm rolling in it.
Even the manager at my electricity company drew a SIOB when I explained my repayment schedule and what I had spent the money on, whilst I was rearranging payments given my distinct lack of, erm, well-offness...