Thursdays FLY

[dylsmum1998]

morning back in a mo.....

Laura Send my congratulations to your SIL. Love the name Rudy. Now can't get the Special's song out of my head

Another W/M load on the line

Pumpkin soup bubbling away
Phone to get fridge fixed going to do now.
Ds playing with wooden train set on his own amazing!
Feeling tired now but shouldn't be I think I've hit a sugar low
TMH Does you condition have a name?
Grouchy Never have a heart to throw gifts out then one day you look at them and can't even remember who gave it to you or when then it save to give away

Starbear - basically I have a spelling mistake in the BRACA1 gene, which is the gene that controls breast cancer, ovarian, peritoneal and some other cancers too.

This means I had an 85% lifetime risk of Breast Cancer and a 60% risk of ovarian and the other cancers.

My mum is the only femal member of the family who has got to 54 withour having anytype of cancer and the only female to live to 65 and

So I have an oophorectomy in July 2008 (ovaries and tubes removed) to reduce my risk of those cancers. I had colonoscopy and gasgoscopy to check those areas was having a double mastectomy and reconstruction in Feb.

It was then that things went drastiocally wrong I had a reaction to the impalants had to have them revmoved along with affected tissue and skin. Then I got septicemia and almost died

I have been left with really emotional issues and feelins about the way I look. I feel butchered. DH find it difficult to look at the area let alone touch it

So I need some help to come to terms with what has happened and learn some techniques to enable me to accept that this has happened and this is the way I am going to be for the forseable future, if not forever.

Sorry if that turned into an essay. It hurts to be left like this, even though I did it for all the right reasons, to be with my precious fam,ily for longer. It doesnt stop me feeling mutulated .

Sorry to go on.

Hello, everyone
Bsck from hairdressser's and school library - feeling more glam now
HSM downstairs, Thunderbirds upstairs! Dh is in charge. Ds2 is playing kick rounders at school till 4.30
Bought nail varnish remover

To do
rest of things on am list
pay elec bill

Scatty I thought it was Joseph not P P?

LBB - I hope you had a rest and did NOT wipe down toys.

TMH Ithink you should reward yourself for a difficult day by just settling down with boys and doing nothing for a little bit.

Laura, congratulations on the sweet little cousin for your dcs.

I think anyone who has even had a caesarian or a difficult birth would comprehend how you feel TMH (even if only a tiny bit of comprenhension). You never really get over that feeling of being violently attacked by surgery, it is there deep down, although you are eternally grateful for surviving and having your baby, babies. I remember having all these bad issues after ds and being given Staphygysria by a homeopath then looking it up and realising it was a cure for someone who had been attacked. It was if my body remembered even if my brain didn't.
That's why I hated swimming (and dentists)for so long after dcs - the cold water was like something I had to fight off.
It really helped me to realise eventually my body was still there, it still worked, it still did lots of things I needed it too, even if it was changed.
I don't know if that helps

TMH x
swan I did a bit of both in the end.

Do all you guys do the detailed cleaning? So not ready for that yet!

That was well put swan. Mad - your feelings are totally understandable (though I'm sure that doesn't make them any easier to deal with).

Swan - it was Joseph, until I found out that it finished on May 30th (I think they are touring the country in the Autumn though . We had even learned all the songs and got a book out of the lib to learn the story lol. Anyway dh found Peterpan on in Kensington Park so we're aiming for that .

I have been doing well with money this month I used the FACE journal on FLYLADY website to work out bugets for things and have stuck to it so far. Prof - First Direct sends a bank balance via txt every week.

Done:
phone call
reboot laundry

best crack on.

Thanks lady's for the comments.

Swan I totally understand the c-section comparision, as I had a crash section with DS1.

I am OK and they think I am handling things well - its just I am so aware of my PND and how that effected family life - cant get that bad again.

Normally I look at the boys and all is OK, but they are being little monsters

Mad - they are probably being little monsters as mummy is a bit sad and they dont know what's what at the moment. It will pass, all of it, eventually. Might just need a bit of help.

Prof - love that tattoo pic.

Our school is incredibly slack and seems to have given up on it. Are we off curriculum already? And tomorrow is mufti day we just have to bring alcohol.
Duvet trailing here, ds2 hs come in with his "parachute" rather like a cat bringing in ia dead mouse and laying it at my feet.

Bring alcohol? To school? very relaxed !

I would need one more like the woman on the left

I am currently pmsl at DS2 singing "shake, shake, shake your willies out" instead of sillies out and giving his willie a good old shake

Mad I cannot imagine how you feel. I'm a misarable so and so and the only thing wrong with me is that I'm a poor speller, a bit chubby and hate work!
Now for the next bit.... you must not let the children see Have you thought about fantasy role play (no don't look at me that way!) You could be a Amazon warrior and your DH could be an Athenan that you've captured. A bit Xenia warrior princess. You will need to get a nice costume! He can just wear a Toga! I love that sort of thing but it takes a few drinks for my DH to get into the spirit he has a go if he wants some action. Strange all my ex's really went for it that could be why they are ex's Anyway that my FLY tip of the day

Okay. Now Ds is in bed and DH is at school, graduation for year 11.
2 lots W/M on the line now in the basket dry
Breakfast Done
Make bedsDone
Dress and wash Done
Phone to get fridge fixed Done
Find number for plumber
Fold clothes Done
Get clothes sorted for next week Done
Buy more parking permits carry over
Buy batteries for jumper shaver thing carry over
make pumpkin soup Done
Now the difficult bit
Write another letter to nursery!
Dishwasher
label ds's new jacket
Ironing
A little studying

Have got another horrible job done. Written another letter to nursery. Now going to treat myself with emptying the dishwasher

well done Starbear
I've paid elec bill
bought bottles for mufti day (fete contribs)
given grownups supper as planned
eaten a flake
before supper - did homework (ds1 was being ec with trth when said he didn't have any)
read story to dd

now lost form completely
mufti day clothes - think there are plenty of clean semi-ironed items...to choose from
lib tomorrow first thing

find waterbottles, rinse & put by sink

Hope packing goes well tomorrow TMH

Hope you're alright LBB

Evening all

I have spent the evening chatting and cuddling DH. I have discussed the prospect of a tatoo with him and he is OK with that. I actually really like the idea and will give it a lot of though over the next couple of months

Loads of flying to do tomorrow, so I am off to shake my willie out

Isn't funniest thing when little kids are a little bit rude. It's the lovely cheeky look on their face that cracks me up!
Goodnight, DH is down the pub now, I'm going to watch Madmen

Look!!!