Evening all
I have cried and cried and cried. The funeral was really moving, it was hard seeing BabyLs daddy and twin brother carrying the little white coffin. The cemetary was as hard as I thought it was going to be.
They had a really large picture of BabyL and he was wearing clothes thar we had handed down, infact he was in most of the photos, it made me smile knowing that they used them so much.
My neice wanted to read a poem, but was unable to so the minister did, it had everyone, even my DH is tears
What Makes A Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mummy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mum who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mummy set me free.
I miss my Mummy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mummy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mum
DH had to leave just after the burial, as his dad had an accident in the tractor, thatnkfully he is OK, but the tractor isnt. But MIL had the boys.
So we are home and I will catch up later - I am doing dinner for the boys