My girls’ bedroom is looking so much better now, but still not finished! They sorted through all their toys with their Daddy, but he hasn’t grouped them into categories, and so the toy area still looks chaotic. I asked him to put kitchen toys in one box, and Paw Patrol in another etc, but no, they’re all jumbled up. Honestly, if you want a job doing…
I got really upset this evening when I realised I have a washing basket brimming over with dirty laundry that will need putting away somewhere in their room, and then found a large bag full of clean laundry of theirs. There is just nowhere to put it all at the moment and they are beautiful clothes that I cannot find any reason to part with.
My Nan was a serious hoarder (clothes, jewellery, ornaments, furniture etc), and my Mum is too. I definitely have hoarding traits and find it desperately hard to not be like it as I’ve been raised with their mentalities, and these have rubbed off on me over the years. I’ve read the Marie Kondo book and watched the programme but still really struggle.
A large reason why we have too many possessions is in fact due to my Mum and Nan having bought so many things for us all - all throughout the year. I’ve tried so many times to say that we don’t need things, but it just doesn’t work. My Mum constantly buys all manner of things for my girls that they really don’t need, and they lap it up. I really want to break the cycle with my girls and for them to be different, but already they think having so many things is funny and clever, just as I used to. It really upsets me. None of my friends’ houses look like mine, and when we have had guests and we clean and tidy like mad, it still looks fucking awful. I’ve ended today feeling really down about it all.