Sorting out my life and home

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I’ve had it today, I’m not angry or upset anymore I’ve just had enough. For years I’ve dreamed of the future and what life eventually be like for me but then the years roll on and I’m in the same situation.
I’ve wasted so much time and lay awake at night making up imaginary scenarios of my perfect future.
I had a sort of lightbulb moment today that I can do something to better my life, small achievable goals.
Starting with this house.
If I can get the house sorted I can move onto the next thing. But god it’s hard, I have so much of my DF possessions, every time DP has lifted something “what shall we do about this?” I just say not today I’m not ready.
But I am I have to be, DF is not in those things I know that. They don’t bring me joy.
It just hurts.
Help me please mumsnetters today needs to be the start how do I do it?

That's sounds so difficult, but it's great you want to make some changes. It sounds like there is a lot of emotional stuff that is holding you back. Could you box up your DFs things and sort out the less emotional stuff in the house, then it may be easier to start and be encouraged by some positive changes. Leave your DFs things till later in the process when you feel a bit stronger?

Thank you @JumpLeadsForTwo for your advice, that would be a great start.
Definitely is a lot of emotional stuff holding me back as I see DF things first then sack it all off.
I didn’t even think of putting all his stuff together and away for while so I can tackle other things.
Thank you I’m feeling hopeful already