I'm utterly fed up today.
I cook most evenings and so DH sometimes tidies up afterwards, but he never empties the sodding bin, always leaves scum in the sink, never wipes down the cooker top.
He leaves the kids dirty clothes on the bathroom floor during bath time (they are very young), wet bath towels in the floor to the point that the area he dumps them in smells damp.
Then this morning, I heard him muttering under his breath about shoes being all over the hallway as the DCs had been playing walking around in our shoes. The shoes were mainly mine and rather than pick them up, I watched him kick them out of his path and then continue through the door to work.
I've been ill the last 2 days and so there is a build up of shit to tidy up. I already have a cleaner (thank goodness) but I spend around 90 minutes tidying before she arrives each week.
The children are quite good overall at tidying their toys away, but forget if not reminded and I've not been around to remind them so their toys are now sitting on top of books in the book shelf instead of being in their baskets.
I actually cried this morning when I saw it all before going back to bed.
I have spoken to DH about it this evening, only to walk downstairs to see that he hasn't bothered emptying the kitchen bin which is full of tonights leftover curry and stinking the kitchen out.
I decided to stop nagging a long time ago as it just made me feel miserable. And instead I realised that I needed to work less so that I could keep a nice home. I now work very part-time.
DH and I howeve recently discussed our money situation and we have agreed that I should pick up more hours.
I feel torn as I know the house will be a mess. I don't think I have high standards at all, I just don't want to be battling through mess all over the floors every day.
I honestly feel like I can't go to work because I'm too busy keeping the home, the children, our meals and general life ticking over whilst DH just goes to work, sleeps and makes a mess.