Title says it all really. I am just so upset to be back at university - I keep on bursting into tears. For context, I didn't have a very good first year, I spent all my time counting down the days until trips home. I was reluctant to come back, but I feel like I must stay - university seems my only option. I have no idea of what I want to do in the future, and I know my parents will not let me drop out. I remain disinterested in my course, despite doing alright in assessed essays etc.
All summer, I have been dreading coming back, and I can't believe that the time came around so quickly to return. I honestly feel that the next time I will be happy will be the Christmas break. I'm just wishing time away, which I know is bad in itself and unhealthy.
I wondered if anyone has been in a situation with their own sons and daughters. Do you have any advice on how I can be content with my time at university? I would ask my own Mum, but I'm trying to only send short replies to the messages asking me if I am OK, as I think talking to my family properly will just make me miss them even more. I came with a positive mindset on getting through it, telling myself it's only another two years, and that it will go quickly..however, this positive facade has crumbled the minute I've started. I've only been here three days, and I want to go home already.