I think I'm having a breakdown over piles

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Hello all

I've had internal piles for years, way before I was pg and while they occasionally bled they've been nothing much more than a nuisance.

I went to the GP a few months back because they were bleeding unusally heavily, she gave me suppositories and despite my initial trepidation it calmed them down and all was fine.

However, on Wednesday I discovered that I now have one on the outside, and I know this is ridiculous but it's destroying me. It looks massive - in fact I'm sure it's got bigger, it's certainly moved. I just feel so disgusting with it, it's low level painful all the time so I can never put it out of my mind, and yesterday we were wandering round somewhere and it was so painful I had to take Anadin. There is no way DH is coming anywhere near me, I feel totally humiliated. I feel scared to do a poo which is hardly going to make things better.

I just want it out of me, I feel so disgusting and have spent a stupid amount of time sobbing about it on my own.

I've got a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning first thing, with the doctor I saw before (she is great so I'm happy about that). I have a good diet in general, should drink more water but stools in general aren't really a problem, they just don't happen every day. I have been using Anusol HC since Thursday and it hasn't made any difference at all.

Is it possible to get rid of it? My mum says that she's had them for years and she's just always put up with them, but I can't possibly. I know it's ridiculous but if I can't get rid of them I'm on the verge of a breakdown.

Can anyone reassure me that I'll be able to get rid of them? I'm sorry about how stupid this is and I'm more than aware that there are far more serious and nasty conditions but this is driving me mad.

Here's a link to the NHS, which outlines some of the huge range of different treatments, from changes to diet and painkillers through to surgery.
It sounds to me as though there should be some treatment appropriate for you and that you are doing the right thing going back to your GP.

Good Luck.

Oh I had this recently and saw a consultant.

Basically we one of the internal ones has dropped down - could have been due to tummy upset/constipation and got trapped by the muscles and has then thrombosed (sp). It is really painful - I know.

However quite often they'll disappear/swelling will reduce of its own accord or you may need a minor op to remove the skin tag thats been left behind.

They can also 'band' them or do an injection. If very sever - you can have the internal ones removed which is a more major operation.

It is horrid though but apparently 25 % of people suffer from them.

Good luck at the gp's and hope you get a speedy referral.

Thanks piprabbit. I hope so.

I trust the GP which always helps.

I'm also trying to prepare myself in case she says they can't get rid of it and I have to manage it, but this always sets me off crying again.

Thanks all.

I've also seen an increase in urine 'leakage' - would that have any impact? Oh god I'm a right mess down there, just as well I name changed eh?

Are you pregnant? As this can make them temporarily worse...

PIF no, although we are planning to TTC again in a couple of months - which isn't going to happen until I get this sorted.

Anyway, I saw the GP today and she was great - prescribed Xyloproct which she said it will reduce it.

However, it won't get rid of it and they have recently stopped doing it on the NHS (along with things like varicose veins etc). I discussed going private - something I've never considered in the past - and I'm thinking about getting an initial private consultation and then see where that takes me. Has anyone ever gone private? If the first consultation is £150 are we talking thousands?