Anxiety mostly health ,

[Iworryalot]

Having a bad day ....anyone els suffer with HA ?

Hi all,
I've recently succumbed to a really bad bout of health anxiety, which has resulted in me starting to take ADs. A few weeks ago I had some repeat blood tests related to a liver problem which I had last year, which have flagged up a low white cell count and high levels of bilirubin.

I've lost over a stone in 4 weeks from worry - can't eat, can't sleep, can't enjoy any aspect of my life. In the mean time I have to plough on getting three children to school and nursery, and with my part time job. I'm exhausted from worry and am starting to think that even if I wasn't ill to start with, I soon will be the way I'm going.

Hello again

Sabire - sounds like you are having a terrible time, and I mean more from the worry than physically, because I do think that if your dr is leaving you to worry for 4 weeks then it cant be as bad as you are fearing ( I mean that in a supportive way not a dismissive way)

I think the fear of mortality is a big driver which is bearable until you have children and then it is just not bearable. It was Caron Keatings death that started my breast cancer phobia - it happened just after I became a mum and the idea of leaving my son as had happened to her was awful. I find October really difficult each year as it's breast cancer awareness month and it's bloody everywhere! I also find it ridiculous that I can even tell you that I know when its breast cancer month

The other thing apart from drugs and CBT which has honestly helped is tapping - sounds bizarre but genuinely has worked!

Tapping? confused, but hey, i'll try anything

i guess its a distraction thing again , my therapyist gets me to do this drop tounge thing, when ever i feel anxious i should just drop my tounge to the bottom of my mouth and this will help ..

worried again .... got appt next week to have blood test done for iron and vit B ....so worried something bad wrong ....has anyone els had /got low iron ...
i had this before ,have heavy periods ,had FBC last month all normal so hoping just iron may be low cos of periods ...

feel tired . breathless and not fully awake if you know what i mean ...

i know some peope have trouble absorbing iron ,maybe thats me ?

Hey Iworry - how are you doing now?
I think you will be fine and doesn't sound like anything bad to me. espec if you had a normal fbc last month.

google tapping therapy - think its just tapping.com. Honestly the number of people I know who this has worked for - it beats CBT!
cured me of a panic attack provoking fear of a pulmonary embolism whilst pregnant last year (no-one can accuse me of not having a good imagination)!!!!

hi fizzy thanks for kind words feeling a little better now ....got /get myself all worried ....will check out the tapping thing ....i will try it and let you know ..
how things with you ?

Hello Iworry, how are things today?
Yesterday was a bad day for me - mostly tiredness I think but think I may be welling up for a serious case of something wrong with me-itis and wondering if I can keep it at bay!

Now have you been tapping???

Hi Fizzy ,had a good day yesterday ,but feeling anx agin today , breathless , giddy and tired , got blood test tuesday for iron , vit B feeling like i have low iron , had before .

How you doing today ?

havent tried tapping will look up right now ..

Hey Iworry
Nice one for having a good day yesterday and bad luck for not feeling so great today - hope the day has got better as its gone on!

The way you are feeling could well be due to low iron (which isn't anything sinister) or could just be from feeling anxious - either way you are still ok - ok!?!

Today has been ok for me - in fact not a bad weekend - ask me next Friday when I am knackered again!

Now assuming you have looked up tapping - repeat after me....

'Even though I feel anxious, breathless giddy and tired I deeply and completely accept myself....'

If you havn't looked it up yet ignore the above as the ramblings of a madwoman

Hi fizzy , glad you doing ok today ....have looked up tapping , is it where you tap various parts of your body ..?
im guessing its part of distraction technique ?
still feeling tired and wizzy at times , cleaned my DS room out today ready for a car boot next weekend ..
exhausted now ...
tell me is it just health you worry about or other things .. & have you always been like this ?

Blimey - don't even know where to start! Have a v long history of HA triggered by lots of things in childhood and then a tumour 10 years ago. Definately got worse after having kids. When my first son was born we took him to hospital when he was 9 weeks old and they found out instead of constipation (which is what we had taken him in for)- he actually had a heart condition and had a 1/5 chance of dropping down dead at any moment! This has thankfully been revised but because of lots of experiences like this of being given sudden bad news I think I spend my time trying to pre-empt bad things happening.

Has taken me a long time to realise that by spending all my time worrying about what might happen I am wasting the good things that are actually happening!

But I would definately say that by nature I am a glass not even half full kind of person - great fun to be around honest

wow that does sound like alot you have had to deal with ...how r u now health wise ? and your son ? do you have other children to ...
mine was triggered by a cyst on my hand i think ...almost 3 years ago followed buy a bout of bad tummy bug from children which left me recovering slowly which then made me worry etc etc .. vicious circle and now im here worried most of the time ...i get over one worry anxiety and then another pops into my head and i cant get rid of it till i see doc to get reasurance .....then im good till the next worry appears ...

Am fine now I think (don't even like writing that in case actually there is something wrong with me and I just don't know it yet...) and my oldest ds is doing ok - monitored, on medication but so far so good. Have 2 other ds's - the baby was born with down's syndrome last year - which was a shock to put it mildly! Took me a while to not see that as another example of bad things always happening to me .

I think the cycle of worry, relief from reassurance and then finding a new worry is so normal and you just have to find the strategies that work for you. Funnily enough having my last son has helped. It literally is unbearable thinking about whatthe future might be like so I have to live in the here and now.

Ahh thanks for sharing that with me im sure at times things have been hard for you .
id have been a total wreck im sure ....
So you have 3 children wow you must be busy ....
i have a son 7 nd daughter almost 9 .

They grow so quickly dont they? My oldest is almost 6 and he suddenly seems so grown up!

As I am now back at work full time as well (gives me a chance to escape ) I am off to read the papers in bed before I fall asleep!

take it easy and I will catch up with you later.

Yes they do grow up fast ... im off to bed now myself to ,
thanks for chat catch you later x

Hi every one...big hello to IWORRYALOT (hope you are ok)I too am a HA sufferer but feel I am "better" now..if that is the right word. Was a frantic case a few years back and it is still with me (that worry about health, that hts you at the pit of yor stomach)but now it does not consume my every waking monment like it used too..I still have a lot of worries and things come to my mind every day but generally i feel i have come through it...will have a wee think what clicked to change me..but I deffo have changed and a much much happier with myself. Looking back I do feel as though having chidren does make HA worse but no clue as too why.????....breast feeding for me was when I was at my worst....:{.....but no clue why.....these are the times when I could feel that hormones played a part..any body else feel this?

Hi cosit ..[smile ] i remember you from another thread i put up....prob about anx or IBS i think ..

How are you ?

Im the same .... but bit better i think

get good and bad days really ..., iv been feeling tied , dizzy for a while now going to have blood test tomorrow for low iron /b 12 to see if low again , had this last year , i do get heavy periods so that could be why ....

just feel c**p most of the time if i do get energy to go something i feel exhausted later ...
got myself in a state thinking all sorts ...what if its something els ect ..

had FBC only last month as was worried bout another issue all came back normal ...so hoping just iron and will give me pills and i will be better .....

whats your secret to feeling more positive about HA ?

had blood tests today so now got to wait for results , had FBC again and Vit B12 and ferratin done ..

hate waiting makes me more ANX ..

how is everyone doing ?

going to DC school play this afternoon so looking forward to that ...