I just need to get this out

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I went for my heart check the other week as I have had a lot of pain in my chest. My heart was fine but they saw a shadow on my lung. I was given antibiotics (which were strong and foul). its a week now and I am still coughing and white phlegmy.

I have never smoked but have had a fair bit of bleeding in the last few months from my bottom (Ive been checked - its not piles).

The doc at heart place said to come back in 4 weeks for another xray - if its still there I need a ct scan.

I had pneumonia twice before and my whole family were very very heavy smokers.

Im so tired all the time and this chest pain and lower back pain wont go away.

I know it may be scar tissue or infection etc etc but I am so so frightened.

My doctor told me last week that I need to be seen urgently and I am in the process of sorting this out with my husbands works's Bupa thing.

I know you will tell me to not think about it now and wait for the results but I cant, I just cant. Im so frightened. Please someone give me a virtual cuddle because my best mate is being a selfish, nasty cow. We were away for the weekend and sharing a bed, because my chest hurt and she was snoring like a train I didnt get any sleep and was trying to get comfortable and she just shouted out me to take some pain killers and stop fidgeting. I then got up at 6am and started to fold my clothes because I couldnt sleep and she told me to go back to sleep for gods sake (I was keeping her awake by folding a few t shirts).

My Mum is an alcoholic and my husband (who screwed our business and lost our home) is now talking about going it alone again and leaving his job..ffs!

Im sorry to rant, Im just so so scared and miserable.

Poor you.

We've never chatted before I don't think, but you sound really worried and sad. Try to take each day at a time and not focus on the 'What if's' , easier said than done I know, but it sounds like resting and not worrying are what you should be trying to concentrate on.

And what a lovely friend you have

You poor thing.I'm not surprised you're worrying. Agree with mrs maidamess.

I am sending massive virtual cuddles.

You are welcome to come round for fresh bread and cake if you are near enough.

We have used Bupa in the past and they are very quick. We have rung and seen someone the same day or the next in the past.

Ignore your friend - she is a loon, clearly, and you don't have spare energy to waste on her.

Thanks ladies. Cake sounds like a plan...in fact I mean it. Cake really does sound like a plan. I think a walk to Costa with the kids and some fresh air will do me good. Bet your cakes and bread are much nicer though

The wait for one consultant was 3 weeks

Im now waiting for one in London to come back to me to see if I can be seen this week.

Chocolate hazelnut loaf in the oven now.

Mmmmmmm...just what I need right this minute.

There's not much in the world cake won't make better. Hope you can have a nice day

God your friend sounds like a cow. Poor you, it's a really stressful time for you and you need friends around you that are supportive. Cake's good. What about some chocolate fudge cake?
You know, it could just be a bit of infection. This can cause pain and show up on an x-ray. Did they find the cause of the bleeding? Is it diverticuli disease?

(((hugs)) and coming your way.

The really expensive Swiss choc, none of that Lindt stuff.

Im going to see the consultant at 7pm tomorrow. Im not sure what is causing any of it. As I have never smoked Im hoping its scar tissue or infection on my lung and just some nasty fissure thats causing the bleeding.

My friend is usually lovely but yesterday really really hurt. If anyone else had spoken to me the way she did and I felt better I would have swung for them. I dont even speak to my dog like that.

Am feeling better now. Had a nice walk with the kids, a sandwich from M and S and a punnet of strawberries, so feeling lots better. Thanks every one x

Have an early night and try not to worry about tmw.

Let us know how you get on (if you want.)