So, I have spent the past few years terrified of the dentist. I used to be fine until I had to have a tooth removed (the first proper work I had ever had). The dentist was terrible, did a rotten job etc. The upshot being I was too scared to walk through the door for a check up, never mind anything else.
Of course that meant that I was not taking proper care! I finally got up the courage to go for a check up (with the help of Diazipam ) and I needed two fillings. The dentist I saw knew I was scared as she takes car of my childrens teeth. I managed to make it to the appointment by refusing to think about it at all. I forced myself into the chair only to burst into tears once I knew the injection was coming (I know I am a wuss).
The dentist then suggested that I may be scared of the injection more than the work and could she try without an injection, which she did - and I did it I am sooo happy I cannot tell you [little dance around the room emoticon] She was right, the injection was the part I feared most!
Anyhooo, once the work was done I asked her about some stains on my teeth and could she do anything? I also have some "calcification" but was told by my previous dentist that the only way to correct this was to fit veneers (at £££ cost). So, my new dentist, obligingly cleans away for a minute or two (which was worse than the drill!) and says it is all done. I walk out, jump in the car all proud of myself, look in the mirror to see lovely shiney white teeth - even the "calcified" ones
Turns out they just needed a bit of a wizz round. I am angry on two counts, first that the previous dentist tried to sell me uselss, expensive and detrimental products and secondly that I have been so afraid of smiling for years now that I don't - I look like Ceily on The Colour Purple, always hiding my mouth, can't look anyone in the eye in case I see their disgust at my teeth.....
AND IT WAS ALL FOR NOTHING, I am so ANGRY (whilst still being proud and happy of course!)
I am not sure what I want anyone to say/suggest, I have never felt such wildly different emotions at one time, I am like a yo-yo and just need to tell someone!