I feel so fat and look at myself in the mirror and hate myself......

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I am really struggling with the way my body looks at the mo.

Gave up the gym last year as couldnt manage to fit it in with 2 kids and horses so gave up but used to be a gymoholic! (going 3-4times a week)

I know i have put on only about 4lbs since last year. I am 5ft 2inchs and weigh 9stone. Surely that isnt huge?

I will go back to the gym in september when LO starts nursery and I am very active anyway but I do like to eat crap.

I joined SW last year but gave up after a while, still have the books but cant get my butt in gear to do it. I get stressed, OH works away all week so I eat for comfort.

I am now thinking of brash ways i can loose weight quickly, slim fast, not eating etc. I only really want to loose half a stone, I know once I have done it i will feel good.

I look at myself in mirror and think im fat and awful.

Hi. Hope you're feeling ok today. I am 5' 2" tall and weigh 8 st 10lbs. I don't think you're overweight. I also comfort eat and my DH works shifts so I tend to do silly things like eat biscuits for breakfast and skip lunch as DH is not there to eat with me. I am trying to conceive at present although I'm not having any luck. Instead of eating the biscuits/cake/chunky kitkats I try to drink a tall glass of water sipping and thinking that I don't really need the kitkat. It is wierd but it kind of works. If you can avoid the treats all day until 8pm reward yourself with half a kitkat or something small. You are not fat. It sounds as though your life is pretty busy whereas mine is pretty quiet. I work full time but with no kids to look after I get bored very easily and my confidence gets low. I don't have the confidence to go to a gym even though I want to. I don't want to look like an idiot if i don't know what to do or how to use a machine. Also I feel like everyone there will be an expert fitness freak and will look down on me. I am not in bad shape (as I think I still have curves in the right places). I have fairly small boobs and a shapely waist. But as I've been trying to conceive I've convinced myself that running or training at the gym or aerobics would harm the unborn baby or make me miscarry. Could you fit in a fitness DVD session at home? There is a channel in sky television that shows pilates and body toning exercise programmes all day the channel is called Body in Balance (poss channel number 275 or 257).
You are not fat or awful.
Good luck. Keep on with this thread. You can't munch treats if your fingers are typing!!!

Goodness thats not overweight at all.

Draw a line today and start making small changes, that will become lifestyle changes so you will be less likely to go back to bad habits.

Put a photo of how you want to look in the kitchen.

Drinking lots of water really does help.

And when you have a snack, have half of what you would usually have and a piece of fruit or a smoothie. The innocent ones a really lush and on offer in sainsburys.

Good luck!

I think 9 stone is pretty much in the middle of ideal weight for 5'2". Is it perhaps a lack of tone that's bothering you? Can you do some exercises at home?

you're not overweight and don't need to diet. cut out biscuits etc by all means - but sounds like you need better strategies to destress most of all.