State of mind!

[Fally]

Since the borth of my secodn babt 10 months, I hav ebecome totally convinced that I am going to die.

Since her birth I have seriously thought that I have had a brain tumour, breast cancer and now gallbladder cancer (mild tummy pains with higher than normal bilirubin count - not ideal but why do I think it will kill me!).

I spend hours on the internet looking up my symptons then convince myself it will kill me - it is driving me insane but I seem unable to stop.

I was never like this before and I just do not know what has happened to me I am utterly miserable and I am dreading seeing the doctor next week in case they suggest a scan and it show up a tumour !

Why am I like this, what had happened to me?

I'm sorry you're so worried . I would say that you seeing the doctor is the right thing and you must tell them how you have been feeling including all the things you have thought could be wrong with you.It's very important the dr knows your state of mind .

You sound very very anxious and that can happen after having a baby - did you have pnd after your first child?

Hello Fally, so sorry you are upset like this. Could there be a chance you may be suffering from PND?

If there is something wrong then the doctor is the right place to be. It may just be nothing, perhaps you were jaundised as a baby?

Anyhow, lets try to look on the positive and somewhat practical side. You are worried, granted, most normal people would have cause for concern when their body is giving them signs. However, like most things stress an make situations worse and can exaserbate (sp?) symptoms to a higher level than what they actually are.

Try to ask yourself, can I do any good by stressing and googling? Most likely no. Am I doing the right thing by seeing a Doctor? Yes, 100% yes. Do my children need me to be chilled and focused on them - I would say yes.

Which day are you seeing the doc? Can someone have the kids? Can someone go with you?

I really hope that you are well and everything turns out just fine. Hopefully someone will come along who also has raised levels who can speak to you properly.

In the meantime try to enjoy your weekend and your lovely children, try to stop worrying for 5 mins, then 10, then 15, then an hour.

Sending a hug xx

Fally - you OK?

Fally, I've seen some people post on here about health anxiety. It does seem to be something a good GP can help with. It's clearly affecting your life and making your miserable. I hope you can find some help.

Hi

Yes I am having a good day today......trying so hard to be more rational about things.

I never suffered pnd with my first and after feeling like this with my second I did speak to my doctor about it - but she said the fact that I know I am over reacting means that I'm not depressed!

Anyhow - thiking logically , I had x-rays taken at the chiropractors about 8 weeks ago when I did my back in, and it was only this monring that I thought surely if I had some massive tunour (or whatever) in there it would have shown up in some form in there - maybe not as exactly to what it is but a shadow or something would have shown up .......so I am trying to be more positive.

Thanks so much for caring!

i must say fally that when i first had pnd-before it was diagnosed i was covinced i had cancer too
i had all sorts of symptoms that i knew where real and i kept going to the gp for them to fob me off
i ended up very ill with pnd and eventually was diagnosed and started on ad's they saved my life
please discuss it with your gp again.xx

It is called becoming a mum. You tend to worry about your own life more as you want to be here for your children and leaving them becomes a big worry.

If you feel ill, go to the doctor and get yourself checked out. If there is something wrong then you can be treated, and if not, then try not to worry.

Hi - sorry you are feeling so bad. I suffer from similar symptoms of health anxiety and believe me, I really understand the kind of agony you are going through.

Firstly though - you are not going to die. You know I cannot say this with 100% certainty because I am not your GP, but in your heart of hearts you also know you are not going to die imminently. You are probably depressed and anxious and these fears are how this is manifesting itself.

Get ye to the GP and also check out the No More Panic website - another MNer put me on to it and it has a special health anxiety section.

Get ye away from Google as well - it is advice I have been given and it is true. You are not a doctor, you cannot self-diagnose.

And remember - you are suffering from anxiety. You are not going to die. I'm sure.