Anorexia - Has it stopped me being able to have kids?

[SmilePlease]

As a teenager i suffered from Anorexia Nervosa. I never talk about it much because it was the worst time period i have ever experienced.

DP and i have been trying for a baby for about 8months. Only last week we confronted each other that we actually were trying for a baby, before that i think i just wanted to make out we weren't so it didn't bother me as much that i wasn't falling pregnant.

He briefly knows about my ED as i still have the scarrs to prove it but i don't think he knows that this could of damaged my fertility.

I've looked on a number of websites that have confirmed my worries and i think i am coming to terms with the fact i have deprived myself from motherhood.

I do not know how to break it to dp, i feel like i am not only a failure to myself but also to him.

Any suggestions would help.

You are being terribly hard on yourself, Smileplease. It's very easy to blame yourself, especially when things don't go immediately to plan. An illness isn't something you should be ashamed of. I know EDs are horrible, but if it is still affecting you like this, you must talk about it.