Can I just have some sympathy please?

[SomeKindofWonderful]

(its pavlovthecat, can't be assed to change my name back right now, but current name is not appropriate to how I am feeling).

I am sick again. I was back at work last week after a week off wih a 'bug'. Two months ago I was off work with throat infection. Between Feb and June I have had numerous sinus infections, 'viral infections' coughs colds and splutters that i just cannot shake.

I made the decision this week to go dairy free for aweek to see if there might be anything in possible intolerance (for sinus issues at least), only started this morning, but already, woke up at 4am with a stinking headache, after going to bed with a headache. Struggled to keep it at bay, no I hav swollen glands (not horrendously so, but enough to feel it), sore throat - you kno the kind you get with swollen glands - my nose is streaming, yet blocked, my cheeks feel pressured and my head is hurting.

I had a blood test on Thursday and should get results back tomorrow. Dr seems to think not much is wrong, other than I am just a bit unlucky.

But I am sick of it. I am fed up with being ill. I just want to be better again. I can't not go into work even if I feel awful, as I have had so much time off work, I will have 'proceedings' against me. You know the kind that involvs meetings to see why it is wrong an 'improvement notice' which means I must no have time off in a certain period and it will just all be stressful. it makes no difference that my illnesses are genuine and can be backed up by the Dr, its to do with a 'trigger' absence number, and I am already over that.

Not to mention my DH running out of sympathy. He just has that 'look' now when I say I feel unwell. Lilke oh here we go again'

So I can't really complain to anyone, andI can't seem to do much about it, and there, I have moaned and moaned.

Here, have some sympathy from me. Hope you get better soon. Cold weather doesn't help as it stops you getting out and getting on. I just sit and shiver all the time.

Aw, poor you.
It sucks being ill for months on end.
You will get better. It is quite common to have a run of bad luck like this, so don't worry about it.
Work are horribly unsympathetic, aren't they? Bastards.

Lots of sympathy (going through something quite similar)

Hope you feel better soon

Oh I feel for you and I know what your going through.
I've had Glandular Fever for months on end, I get better, than feel like crap again. It is so frustrating. DH also gives me that 'ffs your ill again look.'
Im also self employed and I have to put on a front with my staff in fear of them finding out I cannot cope and I would rather be sleeping than talking abot work.
You may get answers through your blood tests, but it maybe that your unlucky.
Wish yer well, I know it's a nightmare. x

Thanks for the sympathy.

Got my results back from GP, as such. Except I dont really have any clue other than all is ok.

The conversation went like this

receptionist 'yes Mrs SKW, It says here your results are ok, it says Dr to action as normal'
'what does that mean'
'It says your sugars are 4.5'
'right. What out the others?'
'what others? er, er'
'can I have a copy so I can see what he tested for please?'
'er, I don't know, I think I need to go get the GPs permission'
'but they are my results, how long will that take? I can come in and pick them up tomorrow afternoon'
'you will need to call the office and find out if you can collect them'
'should I see the gp, will that help'
'er, er, well you could see him if you want to, to get advice about your results, yes. The earliest I have is Friday'

So, I still don't know the results, as I don't know what he even tested for. Apparantly diabetes, which he said he would and which I knew I did not have. But not all the others which I thought he was testing for..

And I am very annoyed now as well feeling full of cold. ffs.

Thanks for all your messages btw. Sorry to moan

Awww, you poor thing you!

Right, snuggle down on the sofa,
here's a hot water bottle,
here's a lemsip,
rub a bit of Vick on your chest,
passing you a large medicinal shot of what you fancy,
tuck the quilt around you,
have an early night.

So sorry. You are obviously really run down: that's why you keep catching viruses etc.

Big sympathy.

Echinaecia and a visit to the doctor.

Snuggle down tonight.

Girlandboy - thank you. Thing is, snuggling on the sofa used to be a favourite treat of mine. But it just seems to be all I do these days . I went to bed at 7:45pm last night. I just was wiped out, slept until 6:30am, and still struggled to get up.

I am taking at the moment goldenseal root, astragulus and ester C, only just started again in the last few days, see how it goes.

I actually feel quite tearful. DH has gone out, seeing as I am likely to be having an early night again. Its just a presumption he makes these days. Not 'you should have an early night babe' but 'take it your going to bed when you have put dd down to sleep'.

I just feel like no-one is taking this all seriously. DH said 'you being ill is such a pain in the ass now' I told him he does not need to really tell me that, I know. Work, well typical work, there is sympathy there for the colleague who is always off sick. Slacker. And I am not. When I am well I work my ass off, and when I am ill I work my ass off, just take more time off. The Dr thinks I am a hypochondriac. He has not said so, but clearly he thinks nothing is wrong or else he would be helping to sort this all out.

LilRed - GP is useless. I actually fear going now, just another trip of self-wallowing. They even know my name ffs. Last time I saw the female Dr, I had a horrendous throat infection, probably the worst illness this year, and she said 'oh you don't look your usual self, you look awful' ! So she knows what I usually look like....that is not a good sign is it?