Just in a very shitty headspace rn. I'm HF autistic and I'd say a pretty continual theme throughout my life is that people have either not told me important information relating to health things, or I've literally only found out 8 months after something has come up. I feel controlled by my brain, I couldn't complete my uni degree because I dropped out six months into the course because I felt like I was going to find a large lump on my body/chest and I would have had to leave anyway and it would have been completely fucking pointless. Then on the other hand, I feel like if I'm out in public and I see any of the other students who studied the same course as me I feel like it's shameful for them to have to be near me or that they look down at me with disdain. The cause of a recent cancer diagnosis in our family was not found to have a genetic cause but what people don't understand is that in a sense, I see it as now that one family member has C, why not have everyone else in the family diagnosed with it as well. It says online that if you have higher testosterone levels as a younger woman, you have a greater risk of developing breast cancer. I have had PCOS symptoms for months, my periods are completely screwed and erratic, the only reason I haven't enquired about getting diagnostic tests is because