Would you talk to your GP about this?
5 years ago I had surgery for cancer. It was a major operation that removed my gall bladder, half of my pancreas and about half of my small intestine. It’s left me with recurring episodes of cholangitis for which I am prescribed prophylactic antibiotics & insulin dependent diabetes. I take artificial digestive enzymes when I eat because I now lack the bits of my digestive system where these are made & utilised. I experience a lot of abdominal pain. I get fatigued very quickly - for example after a not very long walk, and the effects of this can last for a couple of days.
I feel worn down & exhausted; everything is such a slog, even having a shower & washing my hair. I realised this morning that I haven’t changed my clothes for a week.
I’m always worrying about whether I’m keeping my diabetes under control. I can’t overcome the hurdle of injecting insulin in front of other people if I have to eat with them so I don’t inject, which I know puts me at risk of DKA or longer term problems. It’s not a problem with needles, I can inject myself at home, just not when other people are around. I can’t even acknowledge to them that it’s something that I need to do.
I never know when I get up whether I’m going to have a day when I’m going to have frequent and urgent needs to empty my bowels. If it is one of those days I don’t want to leave the house. This week I was too ill with fever and sickness to go to a concert that DH & I had bought tickets for. This has happened a couple of times this year. For the 2nd week running I’m going to have to cancel my piano lesson because I feel too tired and ill to go.
I don't think that I am ever going to feel 100% well and feel my spark for life again.