I am nearly 55 . I've worked for the nhs for 20 years . I have had chronic anxiety since I was 21 caused by childhood trauma. In the 20 years of nhs service I've had 2 nervous breakdowns and was off work 6 months and 8 months . My last breakdown was 6 years ago . I have not been off work since as I reduced my days to 3.5 to be able to cope . I had many calls with my doctor last year saying I was physically and mentally done but I kept going to work. I want to also add i have terrible agoraphobia so work was the only place i went . I worked in a gp surgery through nhs .October 2025 5 months ago I lost my son to suicide. As you can imagine I have completely fell apart and I haven't left the house since . The devastation is unbearable. I feel I'm done physically and mentally. I also have heart issues svt and afib had heart surgery for these in 2023 . Stress can bring them on .I have chronic fatigue also. But the anxiety is horrific. My manager suggested applying for medical retirement. But how likely is it id get it ? I have a lot of medical evidence regarding my mental health dating back a long time with lots of input from psychiatrist to psychologist to counsellors . The psychiatrist actually says i was the worst case of anxiety he'd ever seen . I've now been on sick pay for 5 months since my son passed . Occupational health have been great and basically told me I'm not fit for work. As I say I'm done. I feel I've battled with this my whole life . I've never claimed any benefits ever. I just want to rest now . I can't bear the thought of having to go back to work . All I do is cry all day. I'd really appreciate some advice on whether Ill health retirement would be doable. Thank you xx