Eating Disorders support thread. All welcome anorexics/bulimics/overeaters recovering or otherwise!

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I started one of these a long time ago and it got lost, so ithought i would start another.

been anorexic since i was about 9 and have managed to maintain a stable weight for about 10 years now. however whenever I am down or under pressure i turn back to my evil twin. dh and i have had some probs recently and i havent eaten properly for about two weeks. have dropped nearly 2 dress sizes already and i can seem to stop. i will, i promise, but at the moment it seems... comfortable.

support thread? recovering or otherwise? what does that mean?

should name change really but i can't be bothered. I put my ED frock back on a few days ago. its like an oversize coat that is just really comfortable. I know it won't go too far because i am bf (evil mum emoticon)

totally understand. recovering or otherwise means "im ok and can handle this" or "actually, im not and i cant"

Is this a good idea? Reading that you have dropped two dress sizes makes me . I think I will (try to) stay away from this thread.

beansmum, its not good in rl. i dont look good (even i know that) but its what i do when things are bad iykwim

MoM, sorry you are having probs again. do you have an EDT?

i don't know why i posted. i said after a different ED thread turned nasty that i would never post about my own experiences again.

ah crap. i am in a wierd place tonight. i should just go to bed (and think of a name change)

a what lissie?

and i am not sure that i would call it a problem at the moment

EDT= eating disorder therapist.

must have missed the other thread...

the other support one dropped off after the hillls thing.

nooo i tend not to tell ppl when i 'wear the dress' again. the Hilllls thing tipped me right over (it was me that went and looked for her on a dark pro ana site). luckily i fell pg with ds3 so had to shake myself out of it.

will try and find the other thread but i don't know what it was called or who was on it or when it was!

i hope she's ok.

but it was vvvv crap.

I didn't mean is having an ED a good idea. I meant is this thread a good idea. I don't think it is a brilliant plan to be in an environment (even a virtual one) where our disorders seem normal.

"prezza thread"

I am going to bed now and hopefully things will be easier on the morning.

Sorry i posted. I shouldn't have, and already regret it. SO sorry to hear you are struggling Lissie - is it a struggle? or did you turn to Her?

well, perhaps not. but having an ed is no different to PND or arthritis or SPD. it is something that a lot of people have to live with and it helpful to know that you are not alone and have support. i dont use ana sites because they promote anorexia and i dont want to feel justified in what i do, i just want to know that im not a freak for doing it.

dont know MoM. hope that its a blip.

Oh I don't know, I kind of agree, a thread like this might be useful. I have posted about my bulimia, have a thread about it at the moment here, and everyone just tells me to get help. Which I know I should do, I know without people telling me. I suppose a thread like this might help me get to the place where I WANT to get help. Or it might make me worse?

I think I am a freak btw.

ikwym. when people tell me ive lost weight they sound so... admiring and admitting that ive lost weight through this thing feels wrong. you should get help though. havent read the thread, how long has this been happening?

About 9 years, on and off. It has become kind of normal, I ocassionally take a step back and realise how mental my eating habits are, but most of the time I just get on with it. It's easier to hide than anorexia I think, my weight just kind of fluctuates around a normal level and I eat normally a lot of the time.

What brought on the bulemia? Sorry if I'm asking to much.

a lot of ed suffers feel that way. its as if "youre not underweight so how is it a problem" if i tell people about my ana they look me up and down and i know they are thinking "but youre not skeletal" but its not a physical poblem, its mental. i have an anorexic brain. my thoughts are the same as the women you read about in sunday supplements, i have just managed to keep it hidden.

how are you today?

Hi all, name changed for this.I've had issues with not eating for years now. It has just become normal for me now. I am always getting told I'm too thin but when I look in the mirror I see differently. Recently I've put on a few pounds but that's only because I've been walking less. Although, everyone else can't see exactly where I've put on weight.
When I do eat I feel like i have failed somehow, but if I don't eat I feel so unwell.
It's exhausting, this 'thing'. I don't know how people can recover from it.

hi greatscot. it is possible to recover from bouts (although people do tend to live with it for the rest of their lives) it is exhausting and is no different to any other addiction, have you ever seen an EDT or counsellor?

Hi Lissie
No, I have never discussed it with anyone professional because I have always had it under control in my own way. I know exactly when it started and why it continues.
I've been quite happy recently but over the past couple of days I feel awful. It's not pmt, it's like feeling sorry for myself, just a real sadness, and I can't control it. There are physical symptoms too.
I am eating fairly normally but it's a real struggle. But my definition of normal is probably completely abnormal to most normal people.