Frequent poster but have name changed for this as hopefully I’m just being ridiculous and so do not wish to embarrass myself.
I have OCD (medically diagnosed) and have used Citalopram and CBT in the past to help. I got on top of it and stopped the meds several years ago.
I struggle sometimes but generally fine, however I’m finding things tough at the minute as I have some significant financial and work related worries due to redundancy which are causing me to feel more fractious and anxious than normal.
For the last 2 months I have had a bad back. Thought nothing of it at first, I’m a qualified lash and brow technician and have been doing some private clients in my spare time to help with my financial concerns, and simply put it down to muscle strain from hunching over.
The pain is probably worsening, even after a week or so of no clients, it’s still there. I have been for massages and cupping therapy and they haven’t helped at all. I don’t even feel any pain in the area during the massage, it feels deeper in the body than the muscle layer.
It’s a really acute pain and hurts when I move in certain ways (vacuuming for example). It is to the right of my spine, quite central and the pain / pulling sensation moves up into and under my shoulder blade. I’ve been quite perplexed by it so I’ve been on Dr Google (I know, I know) and have been reading about lung cancer, sarcomas, all sorts, so my anxiety levels are through the roof and I just need someone to talk me down and suggest what the problem may be.
Please be kind, I am not imagining the pain or the severity of it but equally I’m finding it hard to be rational and pragmatic about it, so until I see my gp any words of reassurance would be very appreciated.