sorry, didn't know what topic to put this under. Have changed my name as well.
I just need to know that how Im feeling lately is pretty normal - been in a flood of tears this morning and last night. I am a happy person (I think), happy marriage, and I have one DS who is 8.
It is thoughts about ds that are making me cry - I love him SO SO much - he is a normal kid, funny and frustrating at the same time! I feel guilty for telling him off or being too hard on him, being impatient etc., wanting him to hurry up and go to bed/sleep so I can get on with chores etc. then missing him when he is asleep and sitting by his bed again watching him sleep peacefully! I just feel I beat myself up about things too much.
Also, I look at photos of him when he was younger and just yearn to get those years back again - I won't have any more children (may be that is part of it) and the passing of his childhood years (in a flash, it seems) makes me feel old too.
Oh for goodness sake I am crying as I am typing this!