Sorry this is so long but I wanted to list everything and not miss anything out in the hope someone may be able to advise or help me in any way(I am really getting desperate).
I feel the NHS have given up on me yet I feel worse now than ever before and I don't know what else I can do to help myself and wonder if anyone has been in this position and have managed to some how 're-set' their unruly digestive system?
I first developed gut issues almost 30 years ago. I was 25 and going through a stressful time. Out of the blue one day I soiled myself at work, no warning signs, nothing. I was mortified, this had never happened to me before. From that day in 1998 my digestive system has never been the same. GP simply said it was IBS and that was that.
The first 6 years were awful, I tried everything I could and spent a small fortune on alternative things but little helped. Then I fell pregnant and was symptom free for a full year, I was even able to consume dairy which is something I really struggle with. I do believe hormones and stress play a very large part in my gut issues history.
My 30's were up and down with some really bad and some really good days. I found that stress and certain foods were big triggers. In my late 30's a dietitian introduced me to the low fodmap diet which helped, somewhat. During this time I could enjoy a lot of foods.
However, when I got to the age of 45 it all went crazy. Admittedly, a lot of stress hit at this time - 5 years of daily school refusal from my ds (he's a lot better now hes an adult), MIL terminally ill, my own dm was diagnosed with Alzheimer's and my own perimenopause journey began (hormones and I do not mix well). Over these last 7 years my digestive issues have gone into overdrive and each year things are getting worse, there are only around 3 days a month where I actually feel 'normal' within my digestive system (those days are bliss but I keep a food and symptom dairy and have no idea what causes the issues).
I struggle with the following symptoms:-
Need to use the loo as soon as I wake in the morning and am often woken around 4am with gurgling guts - often need the loo several times in the AM and up until 12-1pm my guts are very unsettled
TMI (I promise I am not a poo troll) stool often has a consistency of peanut butter/wet mud - weirdly hard to push out even though it's super soft and requires LOTS of wiping. I sometimes can have 'normal' stool or even hard/constipated type it can swop and change yet I never change my diet that much so no idea why this occurs
Nausea and a gnawing acidic pain/discomfort (nausea often mid cycle and for 10 days or so)
Reflux and burping
An irritating cough to clear phlegm at the back of my throat
Post-nasal drip after eating
I often have a sore tongue
Tinnitus and a full feeling in ear (this has all been checked with an MRI)
I FEEL THE ABOVE 6 THINGS ARE ALL CONNECTED
Bloating (stomach bloats between 3-6pm regardless of when or what I have eaten)
Farting excessively some evenings yet other times nothing (can not see from food dairy why this occurs)
Excessive gurgling
This year in particular my gastro-colic reflex has become super activated and I often need or feel like I need to use the loo after eating - this makes eating out a nightmare
Pains in stomach after eating (sometimes/sometimes not yet no idea why)
In general an overall feeling of malaise within the whole of my digestive system which never feels settled or calm.
Over the last 6 years I have been back and forth to see my gastroenertologist and have had various tests,
2019 - Colonoscopy along with a gastroscope - gastroscope included biopsies for Coeliac disease, H Pylori, ulcers etc.
2023 - Another Colonoscopy this time with biopsies for microscopic colitis
2023 - A pill camera endoscopy to check my small intestine
2023 - Bile Acid Malabsorption scan - negative
2022 -Stool test for SIBO which came back positive for hydrogen SIBO however, my gastroenterologist (and 2 dietitians) are not convinced of this as they say the tests are unreliable however, I tried Rifaximin anyhow but it has not helped, in fact I feel worse
Private (and very expensive) stool test in 2022 came back with gut dysbiosis - don't think I needed to spend £450 to be told that tbh!
I have tried all of the recommended IBS medication and very few help long term. I have also tried various anti-depressants which made the loose stool and nausea worse and TCA's made me feel like a zombie.
PPI's give me a worsening of diarrhoea.
Imodium helps sometimes and I often feel great the day after taking it but more often than not it just slows down the super soft stool making it even harder to pass and eventually causing more issues (I only take half a tablet at a time). Mebeverine gives me blinding headaches. Buscopan does nothing. Colpermin helps somewhat so that is about the only med I take now.
My gastro tells me she no longer knows what to offer and puts 'Health Anxiety' at the top of all my follow up letters - I really do not have health anxiety, I am simply tired and worn down from having to put up with daily uncomfortable and embarrassing digestive issues, how can that not cause some degree of anxiety? Also I have never been diagnosed with health anxiety by any other health professional so it irks me she has come to this conclusion and seems satisfied with that diagnosis to my physical issues. Who the heck would put themselves through all of the above tests for the fun of it? - Tubes stuck down your throat and up your bum are far from fun.
I really don't know what I can do anymore to help myself, I have come to a dead end. I have spent a small fortune over the years trying to feel better, but to no avail.
Sorry to continue with the long list of things and hats off to you if you are still here but these are the things I have tried and am still trying.
Low fodmap diet - I have gone through this diet with several state registered dietitians over many years that I now know the diet well. I am still mainly low fodmap and eating the foods I know I am ok with and avoiding the ones I absolutely know are not great for me which include, dairy, certain fruits and veg, eggs & chicken (this has only been the last 4 years and runs in the family for some reason), coffee, sugar, high fat foods, fibre (all kinds of fibre give me diarrhoea), beef, beans and legumes, any artificial sweeteners (I only drink water). I have a love/hate relationship with wheat/gluten - I love bread, it's the food of the gods imo but I don't think my body likes it - I once went a full year without it but craved it every single day. I have tried eating just sourdough bread but I think it upsets me as well and I can not stand any GF breads, they are all horrible. This week I have added wheat/gluten to my list of no-go foods in the hope that I may see some improvement (although the thought of no bread is miserable).
I have tried various probiotics but they either do nothing or make me feel worse, the same with digestive enzymes. Aloe vera although my gastro told me not to consume this as it can turn the colon black!
I exercise every day, have spent a fortune on gut directed hypnotherapy both face to face and apps/downloads (currently back on it), I listen to the Calm app every night, I practise yoga, try to get to bed at a decent hour although my sleep is often disturbed now in peri (I can't take HRT) and I try to live as gentle and easy going life as possible which is hard as I help care for my elderly mum who is now in the advancing stages of her Alzheimer's that in itself is enough stress for a lifetime.
I have not worked for the last year due to my issues but I need to return to work. I need to earn money but I need to feel well in order to return to work, it's a horrible vicious cycle. I have booked an appointment with a local wellbeing clinic (recommended to me by a NHS GP) in the hope they will be able to help but I am nervous about spending money on this as I have wasted so much with various private specialists and alternative health practitioners and am still in this position but I no longer know what to do. It's a truly miserable way to live, ruled by your gut.
Anyhoo, if you have reached the end, thank you and if you are able to suggest something, anything that I may not have thought of I would be so grateful.