Hi! 🩷 I’ve never written on any forum before in my life but I regularly read this one and figured maybe someone could help me.
Background: I had my baby girl 19 months ago and adore her and motherhood but something has been up with me pretty much since. I do most of the parenting alone as my partner works offshore for long periods sometimes 1-3 months. I work 2 days a week and SAHM the other 5. I’m generally a very chilled person, loving, calm and happy, gentle and a really good mum until my period!!
I’m absolutely not myself since I had her. The anger that takes over my whole body is something not normal. I’ve found myself shouting at my little one, losing my shit. The other day I booted the kitchen cupboards over and over and over like anger I’ve never felt, because something kept falling out of it. Sobbing uncontrollably. Really bad intrusive thoughts. Depression. Debilitating everything.
I’ve actually wondered if it’s PND but I only ever feel this way before my period so I think it’s potentially PMDD? I came on yesterday and I’m completely back to normal today but I’m terrified for next month because I’m actually unhinged during luteal at the minute. Never used to be like this it’s only since I had my baby 😢
Has this happened to anybody else? What did you do? Did the GP offer any other solutions other than anti depressants or birth control? I’m not on and wish to be on neither 😩 but I don’t know what else to do around my luteal phase to stop this from happening.
I’m the worst partner, mum, person during this time and I want to do anything to fix it 💔 nobody deserves this.