Terrified it's cancer. On 2ww. Please send reassurance

[Arthurnewyorkcity]

Hello,
Please tell me your positive stories. I am going out of my mind with worry, leading to sickness and diarrhea.
I have a significant lump in my chest, doctor described it as 'bulging' and a clear mass. I also have lumps in my neck. I am a female early 30s. I have 2 kids, one of whom is non verbal autistic. I keep imagining me dying or being put of end of life and my kids thinking I deserted them. All I care about is them.

When I saw gp, he was initially quite cold then he saw the lump, didn't even need to touch it and his whole demeanour changed. I was told I'd need urgent chest x ray and urgent ultrasound of my neck. About an hour after I left the appointment, the hospital rang for my x ray and I had it the same day. This was Friday. I've been a mess ever since. Trying to keep busy. I'm worried this is too far gone

Please send me positive thoughts or positive stories.

From,
One very stressed, scared, sleep deprived mum

sending positive thoughts- easy to go into panic mode , especially over the weekend when a lot of services are not available.

Thank you @scarletthollie5 I'm so scared. I have bloods booked for next week

Understandable. Mc Millian nurses have a helpline not sure of times but they are brilliant at providing information and a listening ear. Good luck for blood tests

Sorry you're going through this.
Try and keep off Google as it rarely helps.
From experience, the NHS dealt with my cancer amazingly.
Lots of positive thoughts coming your way. Keep us updated.

Thank you so much @BG2015 I am so scared. Went out for lunch today and couldn't eat through stress (I think). Barely stopped crying thinking the worst. Do you mind me asking how you are now? What cancer did you have?

I had breast cancer. Found in 2021. I had surgery and then chemo and then radiotherapy which ended in March 2022.

I have a few niggly health issues, mainly due to menopause and tablets I take but other than that I'm ok.

It's good that you're getting bloods done and you've had an X-ray. They will get you in and come up with a plan once they've confirmed what it is.

How are you getting on OP? The waiting is awful, I’ve been through it twice (both times fortunately not cancer) but the fear is all consuming. Hope you’re ok.

@Chick981 thank you for asking. I've avoided all things sm as I got myself in a right panicked state and had non stop panic attacks over the weekend. My chest x ray showed no bone abnormality. I've had some bloods to check main organ functions and all OK and bloods were good! I've got more blood tests to come. Still awaiting other tests. I was told whatever it is, will be soft tissue which isn't showing on an xray but lungs looked healthy with no lesions etc. Overall very positive news but still wondering what it could be... its a very obvious hard bulge in my chest, but it's something soft causing it? Is my understanding

I found a lump in my abdomen last year and although the GP I saw was very concerned that it presented as a large, hard lump and referred me for an urgent ultrasound under the 2 ww, as soon as I had the ultrasound, the sonographer told me it was a lipoma and totally benign. I now refer to him as Larry and have learned to live with him! Thankfully for me, that was the only test I had to have but I can totally understand your feelings as I was unbelievably anxious for the weeks I had to wait. Hoping you get good news soon too.

@theresnoonequitelikegrandma Larry made me laugh out loud. So wonderful to hear you are OK. My xray is clear (amazing news), the ultrasound is for my neck for swollen lymp nodes.. but the HUGE hard lump is my chest!? I'd describe it similar to pigeon chest. It looks like a round mass by my Breast bone. My rational mind has taken over a bit more thankfully and I'm no longer fearing the worst, besides intense anxiety at random intervals, but for most part I am OK knowing bloods and xray are good. Ultrasound is Monday then gp is going to decide next steps